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[ivanfyodorovich]

Well it has been a while since I have updated. Since last we spoke several things have happened. I am now certain that I will not be continuing with this program next year. Whatever I might do in the future, right now, this is not what I want to, need, or should be doing. As for the next year I have some goals. I would like to find a job that

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[wildoncooter]

"Whatever I might do in the future, right now, this is not what I want to, need, or should be doing. As for the next year I have some goals. I would like to find a job that involves me sitting at a computer for 8 hours a day, getting paid something that will pay my bills. I would like to start working out again and get back to pushing myself physically. I would like to be benching 275 by then end of the summer and weigh the same."

I like the way you're thinking here. Desk job is definitely the way to go. Move to Nashville and start training! You'll be doing a lot more than benching 275 ;) Looking forward to seeing you in Boston.

[jezzany]

Union's treating me just fine:) Still letting me get away with way more than my lazy butt deserves. I've gotten terribly lethargic now that I'm in my last semester. Life is good.

As for grad school. I seriously thought about it, I almost sent in applications to 3 schools, I was looking at doing a PhD in history. But, yeah, when I really thought about how long it would take and how much it would take out of me I reconsidered very quickly. That would be just too long for me feel like my life was on hold for one thing, which is how I think I would feel. Heck I don't have to be in school to learn, but losing a community of scholars is a definate downfall.

Anyway enough about me, I'm glad you're quitting, sounds like it will do you good. That butload of work you have to do sounds like pure hell *shudder**shudder*

Oh, Phi Alpha Theta is going strong. We're helping out down at Shiloh for their anniversy event. Dr. Carls is practically skipping with glee.

[anonymous]

I am glad to hear that you have had some illumination on the whole situation. Good luck on the last few weeks, and if you get too stressed just dream of the IPA that I am in the process of making and how you will be consuming it shortly. I am looking forward to spending time with you, it has been too long. Take care, my friend.

I live my life in widening rings
which spread over earth and sky.
I may not ever complete the last one,
but this is what I will try.

I circle around God, the primordial tower,
and I circle ten thousand years long;
and I still don't know if I'm a falcon, a storm,
or an unfinished song.
Rainer Maria Rilke

[jezzany]

Feel sorry for me cause only I comment on my own LJ? LOL I kind of use it as my personal diary more than a blog. But anyways, so History Award Banquet. I'm getting an award and I have to pay 12 dollars to go. I'm really contemplating the fairness of this. Also how many awards can they give? Should I really go? I could leave at 1.30 on Thursday to go to Florida. I can also leave later on Friday, but I'd like the extra day. Any comments? I thought as a veteran you might have insight. *sigh*

[jezzany]

Whatever the case, these kinds of things are created for the profs who give the awards. It is bound to be corny, uncomfortable, more or less personally uninteresting for the students.(basically anything Carls comes up with essentially) I would go though. In my own experience I have done a really shitty job of keeping up lines of communication, etc. with previous professors. Bailing on stuff like this tends to thwart the process, at least for me. Taking extra time to enjoy the ending of this whole school thing isnt bad either, but I am sure you are a much better judge of all of this kind of stuff. Who is to say that any of these considerations applies to you? Whatever you do, though, take everything in when you graduate - the important stuff that is, not the dumb ceremonies and all of that. It is unreal how quickly the whole way you have learned to live as an adult simply vanishes when you graduate. All of the cliches are more or less badly formulated attempts to articulate the very real experience of loss that happens when

[ivanfyodorovich]

the above is me. damned different browsers.

[jezzany]

Thanks for the advice *sigh* I'll go. I do need to. I didn't go to a similar event in high school and felt guilty afterwards. It is hard to try and take in these final days though since I am so ready to leave, ready in a way I never thought I would be, but then that's probably how its supposed to be.

[anonymous]

Only one paper, more or less, between me and graduation and I'm whining. You, sir, are a beast.
steve