All it takes is a few days to make it all come crashing down. Everyone keeps telling me to stay away from everyone else, so I guess I've decided to take everyones advice for once. I'll just stay away from everyone for awhile. I don't need other people around me, I feel the same either way mostly. I dont know what this is and I'm not gonna question ( Read more... )

So I fucked up, really really bad this time, and I really dont think I have it in me to fix things right now. Thats how i even got into this mess in the first place, I was stressed out so to alleviate the stress I just stopped dealing with the things that were stressing me out. It worked for awhile, untill I realized that I was just making ( Read more... )

I hurt so bad. I wish I could talk about it but theres nothing to say, its just a feeling thats almost always there. Theres no rhyme or reason to it and it's not really true when I say that knowing why I get this feeling makes it not so bad, it still hurts just as bad and things still seem just as pointless. But I really do believe that theres no ( Read more... )

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Why is it that I never know what I want anymore? And why does it seem like nothing has really been happening for the many past few months? More often then ever I wonder what I'm even trying to do, where I'm trying to go, what I'm trying to accomplish...but I guess thats more a question of the meaning of life. It's not so much that depressed sort of ( Read more... )

This fucking sucks.
This means I have to live with this for the rest of my life. It's not fair.

Things have seemed to be at a stand still lately, nothing happening, nothing changing. I'm just waiting, waiting, waiting, waiting. But why? The only things that can change right now will be changed by the choices I need to make. Why can't I just decide something...anything? Flipping a coin is even too much of a risk.

I wish I could fly.

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