I used to write about how I felt, up until I was in my mid twenties. I always felt connected to journaling and expressing my emotions. Something I am so scared of doing now. This world we live in is crazy. If I am not crying, I am not awake. I have this lead weight in my heart and if I let myself enjoy something for more than a couple minutes I ( Read more... )

there is this big puzzle I am trying to put together ( Read more... )

I'm crying on a bus bench, yes this is as pathetic as I am. I hate that I have let soo many things affect me as much as they have ( Read more... )

i don't even know how to explain it ( Read more... )

things haven't changed at all..maybe the weather..but other than that it almost seems like everything is the same. I feel more than a mess than ever ! but i am calm about this realization hoping to change this with the new year. Maybe I'll do some things for the better , maybe im done with rash decisions ( Read more... )

i update this ... www.littlemotel.commore than i update anything ( Read more... )

im geeking out because of this....

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also
life is so mundane it saddens me.

but on the bright side...
i saw pinneaple express with shadi last night and it was SO FUUCKING GOOD!!!
there are so many good movies that are coming out in the next few months
and im just happy to be home to see them front row with shadi...

all i keep doing is listening to jeremy enigk's song "don't go racing ( Read more... )

there are 3 things i need to get off my chest ( Read more... )

i want romance ( Read more... )