I'm not sure what to do with this yet ( Read more... )

i wonder if he still thinks of me.. from time to time... i wonder if he's ever lonely for me...

probably not.

i'm not talking about the ex boyfriend...

They should use Pink Floyd as a deterrent to drug use. really. I tried to watch The Wall... I didn't make it past "we don't need no education" .... @___@

Because I don't know what else to call it. It's this feeling in my chest. I used to get it when I felt like I wasn't doing enough, like I wasn't being productive enough. Like I had too much time and not enough to do. Like I needed something to stress out about. Last time I truly remember feeling this way is when he made me mad about something ( Read more... )

i'm all mixed up.
i'm scared.
i don't know what i want anymore.
and when i say that i mean in relation to ...him.. the b/f. but apparently that doesn't mean i want to break up with him.. i just.. am so very confused at the moment.

it's been a long time... and lots has happened. i'm back in tx and working ( Read more... )

Michaelangelo was right.

so i tell the truth

and he leaves me there

weeping into the bedspread

That was the last time I saw you. You laid there naked as sin, a half-smoked cigarette limp between your lips. The garish white light from the bathroom washed you out against the rumpled sheets. You opened your mouth only to take a drag. I stood there in the bedroom doorway ( Read more... )

he loves me.

my heart fluttered