My kids keep squeezing my heart lately- in a good way. Tonight M.E. and I were watching Totoro. She'd never seen it. She watched this scene in which May, the little one, runs around the all by herself, watching bugs and tadpoles and getting dirty. No toys or pals even pets around. M. said, "She's a lucky girl" I asked her why and M. answered, " ( Read more... )

We have vacant lot grass. It looks like a meadow without the wildflowers. There are a few Johnny Jump Ups. So pretty. But since they grow and spread so easily, does that make them weeds? We have lots of clover and weedy things that bumble bees like. M.E. was loving being out there until she saw the bumble bees. Why's she so afraid of bees? She ( Read more... )

M.E. seems really hyper since we cut out the wheat. Sort of wacky- and not in a good way. She isn't herself. She's acting in a way that makes parents take their kids off of wheat. Maybe there's something in the gluten free stuff that effects her. Meanwhile, after four days and one very long skate session this evening, Hot Sauce finally got all the ( Read more... )

I'm working on Loobylu's March assignment for her Month of Softies. It's supposed to a doll of me age 7. She doesn't look at all the way I envisioned her. In fact, both my kids flinched when I showed them the head. Mimi actually put it on her hand and chased her brother with it. Hot Sauce said,"It's really just those creepy eyes (Bee says I made ( Read more... )

My son loves the sound of Tiny Tim's singing. Tiny Tim was a celebrity when I was a kid. I thought his singing was terrible and couldn't figure out how he got famous. Plus, he looked like a scary witch. Hot Sauce heard Tiny Tim on SpongeBob. There are lots of references from the late 60's and 70's on that cartoon. I tried to find a Jacques Cousteau ( Read more... )

I just made a hotel reservation for when Bee and I go to the Maryland Sheep and Wool Festival. A reservation for only two adults. In four years, M.E. and I have never been apart for even one night. She'll get to have a sleep over with Grandma. Lucky M.E.! I get loud fucking and fiber. Lucky me!

I'm guessing it's pretty common when you've experienced infertility to keep wishing to get pregnant well after you actually want another baby. It becomes habit to feel a little sad when you get your period or when someone you know gets pregnant. I'm happy to finally be past that. I recently realized I'd never be having anymore babies. I tried to ( Read more... )

I woke up at 1:30am -wide awake. I got tired of laying in bed awake (makes me fish around for worries) so I got up and cleaned. I figured if I had to drag around exhausted today, at least I wouldn't wake-up to a mess. I didn't get back to sleep until 4am. I'm useless today ( Read more... )

I feel pregnant. It's the PCOS. It does this sometimes. It used to do it to my a lot of the time, but it hasn't happened since M.E. was born- maybe once? I can't remember. I keep going in the kitchen looking for something to appease this gnawing hunger, but then everything looks disgusting. Then I want to go to sleep. These hormones of mine are ( Read more... )

I'm either going to take wheat and dairy out of our family's diet for awhile- which would be really hard since that's about all my daughter wants to eat- or I'm going to see if I can come-up with the money for unpasteurized dairy products and just take out the wheat. I've heard that some people with dairy sensitivities don't have a problem with ( Read more... )