A warning sign
I missed the good part then I realised
I started looking and the bubble burst
I started looking for excuses

Come on in
I've got to tell you what a state I'm in
I've got to tell you in my loudest tones
That I started looking for a warning sign

When the truth is
I miss you
Yeah the truth is
That I miss you so

A warning sign
You came back to haunt ( Read more... )

I am so utterly fucked right now......it isn't even funny.

So I have come to the ultimate conclusion that all of my problems as of late stem from the fact that I was falling out of love with Ben, and quite frankly I just don't want that to happen. I do love him and I can see that all that he and I have been doing lately is killing each other very slowly, so slowly in fact that we haven't really realized it ( Read more... )

So its been a very long time since I've written on here, I find that I just need to write regardless of someone reading it or commenting on it. Life isn't bad right now, but it isn't great either. School is coming along and thats really all to be said on the matter. Ben is coming down in less than two weeks, and yes we are still together. A little ( Read more... )

I'm not okay anymore.

Have you ever waited for something? I don't mean wait like oh for a movie to come out or for school to end or something. I mean really wait. I am in a long distance relationship for those who don't know. I have been waiting for over two years for a man, two years of waiting for someone I love. I am sad, everyday I am sad. How depressing a post this ( Read more... )

So it's 9/11 again and I am so sure its horrible of me but I'm sick of hearing about it. I am such a bad american but hey who really cares right? So today, all day long I have tried to right a rough draft for my essay and you know that little bug called creativity just hasn't hit me one little bit. This totally sucks!

Talked to Ben quite a bit ( Read more... )

I'm losing faith in the human race one freakin day at a time, it's rather disappointing. Is it so very wrong to expect things from people, I mean are expectations really such a bad thing?I know anyone reading this is wondering what the hell I'm talking about and to be honest I can't really explain it myself. I just wish people would surprise me ( Read more... )

I am not dead, contrary to I'm sure popular belief. I haven't updated since April and yeah thats quite a long time for the online world. Life is as unchanging as per usual. The summer came and went, bumped into some old friends some of which are obviously not my friend anymore. I hate that about people, you're friends with someone for years and ( Read more... )

Wow, so I am back from New York. Yay!!!! I am so happy to be home, New York was so crazy. Anyways the conference was good, totally stressfull and thursday I totally had a meltdown with 3000 other people but hey whatever. The United Nations was way cool to see but my god New York is so dirty and loud, how do people live there?? I road the subway at ( Read more... )