I really don't know what to write I just feel like letting people who check my pulse through my updates know that I"m alive so much is on my mind but a livejournal rant/scream would not be the best way to deal with it at all. Like emily said it's like everyone is a peice of glass heating all day and then when night comes it drenches it like cold ( Read more... )

This is the first time I have posted a survey thing but I kind of like this one so if you are so compelled and have the patience fill it out ( Read more... )

Oh, I love it. It is summer. everything is falling right into place. not a care in the world. nothing is wrong. it is summer. oh joy it is summer. everything is perfect. it is summer. oh boy. I want to go to the beach. summer is hot. oh boy oh boy I want to go go go because everything is dandy. aint life pretty gosh darn peachy right now ( Read more... )

xo so subtly malicious xo

I need to escape. This summer I'm going to run.

I really miss Ashley ( Read more... )

Some nights are so strange ( Read more... )

So here is my update I've decided to not instigate contact with ashley let her be in control of how much she sees me or doesn't assuming I am available or want to when and if she wants to do something with me. I think this is best because I couldn't take seeing her and not being able to be affectionate I love the girl and I know she's gonna do what ( Read more... )

Please do read this I'd like people to it would make me feel better possibly and I wouldn't mind comments or suggestions of what to do or offers of something to do.

Eric Schmetmann
( the truth
is you could slit my throat
And with my one last gasping breath
I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt )

This may be my weirdest entry ever but I've never really been on a date and I am unfortunately single at the moment and I think it might be a good opportunity to see what dating is like. As anyone who knows me would know I'm not exactly a ladies man, so if you read this and you have any friends wink wink send them my way. sorry for being ridiculous ( Read more... )