am so not happy.

I just want to be loved, by the right guy. I want to know I have the right guy. And if not I need a sign.

Hey, at least I went to all my classes today! Woot! AND Xander took me out last night and it was amazing! <3

Shit in my head and heart is swirling around, driving me crazy. I should have known my listening to my feelings would hurt me in the end. I effing miss you, but that doesnt matter much, does it? I dont matter much, do I ( Read more... )

I don't really know what to feel anymore. I have a thousand things racing through my mind with a million emotions attatched. I do know that for the first time ever, I am getting homesick. I have never missed home, even all throughout last years issues I never wanted to go home. And right now, all I really want is to be in my bed in Mesa curled up ( Read more... )

I am one to cling to my friends. Afterall, I dont really have anything else in my life. My family is not close...at all. So when friends tell me they will always be there for me, and then are not, it hurts more than anything. I've ran into many selfish "friends" in my day. The type who when they need you call you up. They tell you they'll always be ( Read more... )