lately ive been feeling really disconnected from people/the world and i think my relationships are starting to suffer because of it ... i just feel like i cant really relate to anyone, and vice versa, and whenever i try i just end up faking enthusiasm or whatever it is the other person is feeling. its depressing and i dont really know when or ( Read more... )

i went to buy coffee at ralphs the other day with the limited funds currently in my name and accidentally got whole beans instead of ground (what drug was i on?) but didnt realize it til i got home so tried grinding it up with a can of beef stew but it didnt work so now im pissed because i spent eight dollars and still have no coffee. any

... jillian will be home in 1 (if i could cap, bold, or italicize that i would) day ... 1! as you can see im very excited but i wish it wasnt raining ... why does it always rain when people get here? i remember when zach and jake came down last year it was pouring for like the first two days straight. how mean, not to mention tricky. anyways ( Read more... )

"HAH! ... hehe ... HAAAAAA ... pfff ... pfff ... hehdkdf ... prefontaaine ... prefontAAAAAine ... watched that film about, uh ... maybe bout 4, 5, 6 months ago ... uh, thank you, 'preciate it ... very nice gesture ... uh ... fuck ... dude ... uhh, give you a ring in a little bit ... but uh, thank you .. adioas ... SHHHHHHHH ( Read more... )

i finally and went and saw bad education yesterday. sooo good. i love gael garcia bernal ... i kind of think he should marry me, actually. on another note, i went to buy my books the other day and ended up having to pay all my enrollment fees at once, meaning i got paid just two days ago and am already broke again. not cool. i wish my parents ( Read more... )

ohmygod ... so tonight i snuck into a club, got very wasted, developed a slight crush on one of my roommates friends, listened to my mother tell me [hysterically] that zach, also drunk, totalled her car, reconvened with old friends (krystine, hadas, jaime, jenn, i loooove you!) and ate some sick ass food at dennys. and im still drunk. and i have ( Read more... )

last night i drank an entire container of chocolate milk and now im really not feeling so hot ... im pretty sure now, actually, that i am indeed lactose intolerant, as my mothers been telling me for years, and i should stop downing milk obsessively.

work ...

oh man ... just sitting here checking up on emails and peoples journals wishing desparately that i didnt have to work today ... yesterday was a day off for me; well, kinda; i only worked til 1, so after that i went and bought some art supplies and came home and created a beautiful masterpiece that i tried to hang on the mantel but marshall ( Read more... )

the following quote of the day exemplifies quite nicely my work environment:

yolie: whatd you major in again?
amanda: mass-communications.
yolie: oh, right. whatd you want to do with that?
amanda: uh ... mass-communicate.

the sun has finally risen ... thank the lord!