So what is it I should do? Freak out? Check! Not sleep? Check!  I miss my daughter and I just don't know what to do anymore. I get married Sunday. To someone I want to marry and I am losing my mind. I have to drink a half a bottle of nyquil to sleep. For 3 hours. Then again. How does anyone do this? I want to marry him but it seems like cards ( Read more... )

 Thats right. I moved back to Sebastian. Well , Grant. It's like right outside of Sebastian and in between Melbourne. I have a job interview tomorrow with FMU and Im going to the doctor tomorrow to get my Thyroid and this effing cold checked out. I have a headache but I hope that will pass soon enough ( Read more... )

I feel like I could cry. It's not THAT BAD.  It could have been worse I suppose, but Im so disappointed in myself. So I had my first meeting with my personal trainer today and it was an EYE OPENER. I feel like I let myself down. I think I have a problem with food. I love it. It's my favorite thing, and I eat healthy 90% of the time (im talking fat ( Read more... )

My stepmom put photos up on snapfish. I look like hell but enjoy the pics!

http://www.snapfish.com/thumbnailshare/AlbumID=37076334/a=44712069_25157781/t_=44712069

yay. I have a wonderful little girl.

its lonely here.

Okay. Its week 36 and 4 days. My god its way too long. I will never do this again, they can take it all! However, I suppose since I have less than 4 weeks to go it could be worse, but not much. I can't sleep, everything gives me heartburn and indigestion, it feels like a hammer is constantly banging on the inside of my vagina, and my feet are ( Read more... )

You know sometimes I feel like I should be journaling a lot more just so I have some sort of memory of this whole pregnancy thing.But I dont really I guess. Good things that happened to me today were Tiffany giving me a book I really wanted (Conversations with Flannery O'Connor) and a 25 dollar gift certificate to DSW for when my feet go back to ( Read more... )

It has come to my attention I really hold no interest in my former life. Infact, even some people coming to my baby shower I barely even talk to now, so whats the point? I guess people have other people stick around to feel special? I dont know. Not saying that what isnt important to them isnt important at all but really I could care less about who ( Read more... )

im super sick. no fair.