i cant control or change others past. i can only deal with it.... and try to look past it and hope for better. its not that i just settle and forget.. or completely tune out horrible mistakes. i just try not to let it happen again.... and try to be supportive when people realize what they have done and are ready to change it ( Read more... )

I am so freaking confused these days.
It's like im either trying too hard..
or im not trying hard enough. this is all freaking stupid.
Im glad i have good friends. <3

im thinking that livejournal and i should be frinds again... "iwritebecause" has never done anything bad to me... and i should give her another chance ( Read more... )

oK. SO every website i go to will load and act normal.. like any other time.
but for the past 3 days myspace will not load.
it sais.. its loading.. then it sais done.. but then there's nothing on the screen.

what does this mean?

If I log on to myspace. or push another refresh button im going to go crazy ( Read more... )

So i havent talked to my mom in like.. over a month. because i hung up on her and shes tired of me "disrespecting her ( Read more... )

So today work sucked because nobody was in the mall. which means no money for ashley (since i work off commission ( Read more... )

I am going to start updating my livejournal again. It really does help me when i need to vent. ( but i really dont need to right now) lol So today is my first saturday off in 7 months. And i also have tomorrow off too!!!!!! akfhlirdhfidhfuih yay ( Read more... )

but all i have to say right now is...

BLAH.

i am alive and kicking! =)

oh and allen is too . =)