I know I have changed. I'm not that happy kid that I once was. I've changed so much over the past 2 years.  Appear wise and emotional.  I used to be able to express myself and not feel bad about it. Now, I cry I just want to cry more because I don't like to and to me its a weakness. You, bring out my best weakness.  I don't even know what to say.

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Yea...so basically today was awesome and then it came down so fast.  Wait, that is the story of my life, right?

Started off, by my mom telling me that I was going to drive to practice. It was okay, and then drove to Madison's. I realized I don't like to drive. My mom makes fun of me for it...she was like you will like it better the more you ( Read more... )

"Look at this scar, mommy. i did this all because of you for everytime you brought me down all the hell you put me through. this cut, i made for you daddy, because you had to go. i remember the night. i got the news. crying because i loved you more than i ever let you know it's not because i hate you or because i think it's your fault that you had ( Read more... )

So much to be happy for, but why do I feel so...contained? I mean like last night was amazing and then I came home, and had to leave again because it was terrible. I don't think I have ever been that embrassed...ever.  All I want to do is sit and cry, it reminds me of a time when I know I wasn't happy and I wanted to get out. I was four isn't that ( Read more... )

It's been awhile. I guess I've just been busy. not really just not able to get on because of conflicting problems that I do not care to mention.

I got my report card, I passed with all A's and 2 B's. go me. not really excited, if you couldn't tell.

Rachelle and Christina are in my 6th period class which is fucking awesome!

I love Dusty and she ( Read more... )

have you felt this way?

I think not. I can't even describe it.

Today is a terrible day in a sense. I can't think of anyhing but her. and wow that sounds really different for me, but I can't. Because I know when I'm laying in my bed or on the computer she is laying in a hospital bed with all sorts of things hooked up to her. I'm scared....I can't go ( Read more... )

Tonight was amazing. haha!

Marker fights, charlie and the chocolate factory, making out, laughing, fighting to get the marker out of my hand, playing unfairly, fighting to get my cell phone back, falling off the couch, my mom realizing how short I really am, and just basically spending most of the evening with you.

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Tonight was....amazing

• Seeing Kara, hanging out with her for awhile until my lesson and a whole car load of people
• Seeing Kyle, for like 5 seconds
• Talking to Claire for about 30 minutes until she had to go. fun stuff...great times
• Catching lesson!
• Almost hitting Jason...he would have cried. I did that twice

• I hate break
• I hate work
• I hate my new bed
• I hate JW
• I hate crying

Christmas was fun.

I got a lot of things.

I got sox. I love sox they are awesome. basically like my favorite article of clothing EVER! Oh yes.

hehe.

I love Sam Milroy! she is awesome. go read her comment on my myspace. www.myspace.com/ixhatexyoux

funniest thing ever.

but yes.

still missing that certain person.

but yes, I should go and join the ( Read more... )