So I guess I haven't done this in a while. It's the Myspace addiction I suppose. A lot has happened since May 6th. Oh yes, a lot.
The biggest one is her and I not being together. That was a sad day. I seriously cried for like two weeks. Sometimes I still cry. I just don't understand. I swear, if I ever have a kid and they come to be saying that they ( Read more... )

I still don't understand them. How could something that feels so right be so wrong? I'm not changing her. She is still her. How can you do that to her and call yourself her parents? I just don't understand. She is the same beautiful and amazing person that she has always been and always will be.  Just give me a chance! Is that too much to ask for? ( Read more... )

It's ao amazing when all you can say is wow.  Saturday was...wow. Almost all evening I got to spend with her. She came over about 5:30ish and stayed until like 10ish.  It was amazing. I love her so much.  It will be 2 months in 2 weeks.  I won't see her for another month. I can't wait that long.  I'm so happy that I have found someone who I feel is ( Read more... )

I hate everything about it. I hate how her parents can't understand the way she feels. How she has to hide everything from them. I hate how they can't even try to undestand and try to push her away from me. Why can't she just be happy? Why does it have to be a big deal? Why can't we just be happy?
I've never felt this way about anybody, don't take ( Read more... )

This weekend was just simply amazing. She is amazing. I love her so much. Friday was funny when she showed up at my house with her parents. God, her parents and my mom talked forever. it was funny though. and then they left and we (Karissa, me, Mollie, and my sister) watched Corpse Bride and Pride & Prejudice (yea, I know I spelt it wrong, get over ( Read more... )

Just wow. 3 more days.  March 13th...that was amazing.  Its hard to listen to this song, but its my favorite now.  just wow. What more can I say?  Everything reminds me of her....anything.  I know I was the one to say that it was her thing, but that was before her. I just don't understand. of all the people I thought that could understand she doesn ( Read more... )

It's been a long time. Lots of things have happened. Some good and some bad. The good is the greatest, I can't explain it. 
*The smile fades and hides until you bring it back and keep it.*
Four hours last night on the phone and I have no idea what we talked about. lol. some of it was actually somewhat serious. we never have serious conversations when ( Read more... )

That line is bullshit.  It is killing me and I'm not getting stronger.

*side note: Karissa's main goal in life is to get fat*

Anyway. I'm not with Dustin anymore. yea... *sigh* I don't know what happened, again.  I think I have an idea.  It's your fault. I blame you, even if it was a long time ago, it still hurt and I still haven't recovered from it ( Read more... )

I can't do this anymore.  It is all falling apart and I can't stop and fix it. and I can't stand it. I said things last night that I would have normally not meant and only said out of the moment, but I mean those things now.  I know I've said it before, but now it really is if there was ever a time that I could, I would and get it over with. I ( Read more... )

How have I let myself get back to this?  Why do I keep coming back? Why does it have to hurt so bad? Why do I have to hate myself?