Comments | izzabizza: Rehab Update

izzabizza

Rehab Update

Apr 15, 2004 00:31

Hello all. I'm just saying I am starting Out Patient and this means no contact with anyone from home for the next 11 weeks or so. I want to get sober, but I always have the urges to get high. I cried today, yesterday, and the day before, but friends here are like friends I have never had before. In an instant they were already my brothers and ( Read more... )

Comments 32

woo-hoo anonymous April 18 2004, 13:07:45 UTC

you deserve my kudos. *bows*. i respect you so much man, youre being really strong. i'm so happy youre getting clean (!), i miss you tons, and i hope that when you get back we can spend some quality sober time together. well anyway, until next rehab update, good luck to ya baby. i hope none of your cooler, greater, older, cleaner friends replace me, haha.

alyssa

this is ben. anonymous April 18 2004, 18:56:46 UTC

now, the thing i dont understand, is why it wont let me put my lj username darkerview, but its all good. HOW ARE YOU LIZZ? i know things are getting better for you but you know the thing that always makes everyone feel better. a real man. a man who always gets his meat. that is the kind of person you need now. lizz i love you, keep up the incredible work, and you are my idol now. you are the man!

Re: this is ben. izzabizza April 19 2004, 00:48:52 UTC

::seriously smokers cough dies laughing:: "a man who always gets his meat" hahahahahah oh god ben I love you. Things are gettin better and im feelin happy and sober. its been two weeks today. wow... 2 weeks sober... thats a first in a long long time. anywho, i love you.

So I`m back in town again now......doesnt effect u...im rambeling...fuck anonymous April 18 2004, 19:28:24 UTC

Hey love, it`s Heather. Got home today from the beach....I went into this poster place last night at the beach...it was really cool....I kept seein all of these posters that reminded me of you and randall. I saw the graetful dead, bob marley, janis joplin...etc. I was just like wow.....shit...I really fuckin miss Lizz....and I cant see her when I come back home. Made me a lil dperessed thinkin bout it. But its cool man, I know that ur in a better place right now....that makes u sound like you are dead....lol....yeah you know what I`m sayin. I`m glad how cool the people there are and how tight they are...sounds like hippies.....and that alone makes me happy. I had a break through in my life this week...like...a spiritual thing....I was walkin on the beach one night, and I sat down and just looked at the sky and the ocean for the longest time talking to myself in my head and out loud too. Just being there, put alot of things in my life into a different perspective for me. Your the only hippie friend I have, and damnit some things people ( ... )

Lizz...its dan...get back to me anonymous April 18 2004, 21:20:13 UTC

lizz...its dan. rock the hell on baby. get back to me whenever you can. keep kicking ass in there buddy.

Re: Lizz...its dan...get back to me izzabizza April 19 2004, 00:54:26 UTC

dan oh my god its so good to hear from you. I have been thinking of you A LOT. Its been two weeks sober, thats a big deal right here. But now I'm feelin kinda sick. Homesick and physically sick. I got a drug test here... with the needles and shit. The woman missed 4 times so it looked like i was on heroin.

I think of you as my phish phriend idol. Cause I know and you know, I cant just give up on my music cause I used to get high to it. But I also listen to Phish sober. And I think of you whenever I turn it on, and think Dan can do it, hes a great person, hes happy, hes sober, and a phuckin phan. I love you man.

anonymous April 18 2004, 23:43:54 UTC

Liz, that's some awesome stuff to hear from you I'm glad you're making such a big turn around, I truly am proud. I've always tried to boost your confidence and boost your estime to get you off of all that B.S. and always tried to show you sides of the world that require a greater understanding in the mind than a lesser understanding through the gross emo drugs and confusion (sorry to those who read this and suck and take that personally...quit sucking...). I'm seriously glad to see that you're on the road to be somebody awesome.

"Hold your head high,"

-He who cannot be named
(but still wants the Jerry painting AND credit for giving you the picture cause I'm RICK'Jaaaames BITCH)

P.S. The "power" comes from how you make it, for those who think it... Get it? Hit me back on that post, rookie-ass.

izzabizza April 19 2004, 01:00:53 UTC

It took me a minute, but I know who this is. It makes me smile, and it makes me smile that if I was high I couldnt fuckin figure it out. hehe.

I am finding a greater power within myself. That I am not alone, and that drugs were great and I loved them. But its not something to do or to live by. Good experience I want to, but never going to experience again. I have had high times here being sober. Being with some people is fucking spiritual man. I wedged (not sleeping for 24 hours) and was with theses people up in the mountains. We watched the sun rise and listened to Jimi Hendrix Little Wings. I wouldnt trade it for the world. I was high. But not in the way I cant remember what happened the next day. I like it like this, and slowly growing into the habit.

-She who can be named - Lizz

PS. I aint no rookie ass, I'm Rick James BITCH