I'm in outpatient therapy right now. I'm here from 9 in the morning to 3:15 in the afternoon. No cigarette breaks, no cell phones, no Myspace. At least it's better than the inpatient hospitalization that I was in for a week. I'm just so fucked up that I don't know what to do with myself. My moods swing so rapidly and I'm always anxioius. 
This sucks ( Read more... )

I'm so miserable lounging around the house with nothing to do. School has already started and I'm missing the first 3 days due to this stupid goddamn virus that I have. I don't know where I got it from, or how long it will last. Hopefully I'll be in school by Monday!

I hate being sick. I just feel like a giant useless blob and I want to just curl up in a little ball and go to sleep until I feel better.

 I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside ( Read more... )

Tomorrow's orientation for school. I'm ready for school to start back up but I know that once it's in full swing I'm going to be like SHIT. I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE I WANT IT TO BE SUMMER AGAIN. Oh well, at least I get to look forward to seeing people i haven't seen all summer. And getting made fun of by almost every person at my school.

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I've felt like this for so long but I haven't put it together until just now. It happens so slowly and then it hits you like a speeding train. I can't take the pain that I've been feeling for so long, it's just not human. I'm not an anesthetic and I'm not on drugs. I guess it's just something I have to take in stride, swallowing the pain so deep ( Read more... )

I pretty much haven't slept for 2 days straight. I feel like shit but at least I get to see my bestie Krista today! Oh and I'm getting Starbucks.

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