so someone is attacking my throat in the night.
because my throat hurts so bad right now. and my head hurts.
ugh. sweet v-day, guys.
hah.

regardless,
possible hangs with dougie this sunday make things cooler.
possible show hangs with him in march make things cooler.
talking to him every day makes things cooler.
him taking an interest and taking me ( Read more... )

we should recap ( Read more... )

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Dark bedroom thoughts and
Overwhelming wishes, its just those
Under cover dreams. I'm just
Going crazy trying to stop myself.

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i will update this with more goodies and pictures later
because tonight was good hang time with dani d. and doug-e.
good talks and good fun.
dani and i stayed for a while
and then went out to in and out at like, 11.
awesome night.
doug's in the midst of writing his retort to my part of the debate.
woot.
round two.

anddddd
he made this
and gave it ( Read more... )

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dark water epiphanies
and violent winds of change.

tears fall through slits in my fingers.
crash against lavendar pillows and i cannot save them.
i create them.
salt water kisses reach my tongue
to mix and run through me 
like drinking the blues.
hearts swell up one million sizes too big
because they're full of tiny pins.
prick and bleed
tear it all to hell.
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my moods are like climbing the rockies.
one second i'm laughing and the next i'm fighting tears.
strange.
i feel like crap.
i don't feel any motivation to go to first period tomorrow.
the only reason why i might show up is because i'm afraid of what my friends will think if i don't go.
but i think i've pretty much beat that horse to hell.
sarcasm is great ( Read more... )

a two day long debate thus far ( Read more... )