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[jack_o_nine]

It turns out a song i wrote about myself actually describes my mom when sung in the 3rd person. All I did was change a few of the lines but suddenly i get the sad realization I'm just like her in a deeply hidden way. Every line either means so much or something hidden but I guess all writers experience that when they're writing about personal

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[notyours_mine]

I had to go back and look for it, but I remembered that you wrote this one long post where you talked about wanting to be like your mom and being happy that you are like her. It was on Feb 22nd. What's different now?

[jack_o_nine]

i guess just my perspective on things. sometimes i want to be like her and other times not. i think its inevitable either way. a lot of it was the fact that i realized how shitty i am to nick when he actually showed the same kind of disrespect to me that i usually do to him. i always told myself i was just standing up for myself and didn't let him rule over me but really i just treated him sort of like how my mom treats/treated any and all of her boyfriends, and not ever really opening up or showing vulnerability to anything. which is bad after 3 years you know?