staring at myself
knowing you were always right
my biggest fear is that i'll be what you always thought i'd be
apparently you saw the demons in me before i could
i guess i'll carry this weight forever
deliver me from being that which you knew i was
i swear it'll be different
i'll bide my time until i know
then i'll make my mark
one way or the

yesterday was such a pretty day. it really sucks that i was confined to my crap apartment for the entirety of it. if i had my choice though, i think i would be there today too. i feel so horrible. now i can't hear out of my right ear. i feel like i am going to explode. ahh fuck.

fuck it