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Why does it feel so wrong to reach for something more?
I can't count the number of times a day I criticize myself. If only I was just a little bit skinnier, my boobs were a little bigger, my ass a little tighter. If only I wasn't so shy and unfriendly, so boring and ordinary. If only I could look them in the eyes ( Read more... ) -
I doubt anyone still reads this...
But wow. Looking back on some really old entries...I can see how I've matured somewhat. But the same basic fears and anxieties plague me now. Have I really learned nothing ( Read more... ) -
seriously
i'm tired of the petty fights over insignificant things. so what if i'm "not in touch with the real world"? is that a crime? there's nothing wrong with that. i'm 20 and in college. this is my real world right now. i'm sorry it doesn't match yours, but that doesn't mean you can be rude to me. we were joking around having a good time until you ( Read more... ) -
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welcome to the end of the world (not just as we know it) -
"When you lose inspiration....
...search your heart for a better reason than before" Someone once told me that about writing but I think it could apply to alot of things. The trouble is that it's easier said than done. Giving up is so much easier, that's why that's what most people choose to do even if it isn't the right thing. Finding a better reason takes time and effort, ( Read more... ) -
you know you're pathetic when...
everything seems to parallel your life and your problems. like a book i'm reading. i swear she's writing about my life almost ( Read more... ) -
So I guess no one reads this anymore probably....
so you shouldn't mind my rambling.
Today I didn't make an effort to keep busy and it's really taken it's toll on me...
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don't pretend you don't know when it's obvious you do
you know even when things are clear and simple they're still painful ( Read more... ) -
You know that stupid saying....
It's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all? It's total bullshit. Just thought you'd like to know. -
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so it's been awhile.
things are good now though. school still brings me down but i'm almost done.
but it's ok. i have my boy and that's what matters right?
so yeah. things are good.