so what do you do when everything feels disgusting, everything you care about crumbles, and all desire withers, you lost motivation, nothing gives comfort, do you wish this breath was your last? dream of not coming back from the dream you are so desperately lost in? No one knows you, no one cares to know you. No one cares whether or not you do ( Read more... )

So my band finally played the hells kitchen show, i thought it was quite an experience, i have to honestly say one of the coolest nights of my life, i mean come on i just got to be the front man of a metal band in a pretty packed club show. We did good, just a couple mistakes, nothing i cant live through. three inches of blood show anybody? i ( Read more... )

Yesterday my drummer had to close at work so we couldnt practice, and he never knows when he works till the day of. Guess what tonights the same fucking story. we play our FIRST show tomorrow. now i think were gonna fuck up. We havent even finished our 7th song yet.

so yah to die for, is how i would describe us today. and the lyrics in the song thats playing, leah looked hot, and some (racial obcenity) was like damn, so on so on, when she was like 3 steps in front of me with 2 of her friends, so she says theres my fuckin boyfriend right there, and the monkey, did i say that? says i dont give a fuck, so i tell ( Read more... )

SO yesterday, lets see, got up, had nice living room sex, got ready picked up chris (fatums guitarist) went to the mall with leah so she could get her hot ass wet seal skirt, ate some chinese food, went to joes (fatums drummer) house to practice and get ready, didnt really practice much, Joe and chris left to get a sack, oh yah and james was there ( Read more... )

im such a fucking idiot.
i got paid yesterday.
Now im broke.
i had no idea i spent all that fucking money.
i cant handle this puny paycheck shit any fucking more
i cant even get my girlfriend things.

im sorry.

remind me to never joking make a comment like the last one again

my girlfriends a lesbian

So last night, woopidy doo, did the same fucking thing as always, go get wasted somewhere, new scene tonight, leahs friend brandys moms apartment. Her friend brandy is totally wasted as soon as we meet her, she proceeds to get them a bunch of smirnoff triple black and mgd. I had already decided not to drink but i took some percocet. I threw up. ( Read more... )

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ( Read more... )