[Six]Downfall
Six. Raison d’être.
-fany’s pov-
There’s only two more weeks left for my final showcase that I have been practicing since the school year started. It wasn’t until yesterday that the director gave us the timeframe on what to do for which day.
“Okay bye!” I wave goodbye to my co-actors and actresses that are still fixing their costumes at the dressing room.
As I walk past my co-actor’s girlfriend that sat on one of the audience seats, I remember Yuri, that girl I ate dinner with for a few months, after practice like this.
I wonder what happened to her after that incident.
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It doesn’t take long for me to reach the same road that I rejected her on. I didn’t come to reminisce but it was just mere coincidence as I had to get a book for my philosophy class from the bookstore anyway.
Here was the place I stood when I said all those things to her.
Honestly, I don’t feel bad with what I’ve done since it was for the best. If she didn’t become so stubborn with her feelings, things would never have ended so harshly. It was her fault and besides, on anything I wanted to focus on my showcase.
Also, I can’t return her love for me since I don’t feel anything for her. Am I wrong for not being selfless towards her?
But it’s kinda boring without her. I mean, she didn’t talk as much but observing her kept me entertained. I didn’t really purposely hold hands with her or anything just to observe but I guess it came in naturally and she didn’t seem like she minded it.
When she left, I’ve been eating dinner alone since it’s just much more convenient to arrive home, shower and then sleep.
Truth be told, I broke up with my boyfriend because I thought she was going to keep me company as I dealt with my own pain. I thought she wouldn’t mind us doing it as we were pretty much holding hands and being together like we’re dating, except that there was no mutual agreement of us having that sort of commitment.
I guess I kinda overestimated her.
Maybe I should go see her soon.
Oh-which reminds me, I need go back to the university to give something to uncle before I go home today.
I start walking towards the university and I arrive to the biology building, only to recall how I first met her. It was at uncle’s office and she was extremely shy but I wonder if she’s like that with all the new people she meets. As far as I know, she’s the president of some club and she’s pretty much the number one student for our class.
“Uncle, where’s that girl, um Yuri? Do you still research with her?” I should might as well ask since I’m here.
“Oh, Kwon Yuri? We finished our project a few weeks ago. I wanted to give her time for her finals.”
“Oh, okay.”
“Is there anything wrong dear?”
“No no, nothing.”
Chyeah, as if I can just blurt out that she loves me so I made out with someone to prove her a point.
“Uncle, I’m going now.” I am so tired from practice. I just wanna go home and relax.
“Okay, bye, have a safe trip home.”
Before I get out of the building, I see a group of people standing around the building and I notice someone with long black hair. Her body looks similar to Yuri, except that she has super straight hair. Yuri has slight waves on hers.
But wait, I’m in the biology building and Yuri’s a bio major right? Maybe that is her. I’m going to go say hi.
“Hi Yuri.” I call her.
She’s not responding but she’s walking away, obviously ignoring me.
“Yuri.”
She’s still walking. Seriously, what is wrong with her?
“Yuri!” I scream and I slap her shoulder.
She then turns at me, and I think I just made a big mistake.
“Hi, um, I’m not Yuri.” This girl tells me while taking out her earphones.
“Um, I’m Seohyun.”
Oh oops. I guess I felt too eager to see her that I went overboard.
“Oh sorry, wrong person.”
“Um, but if you’re talking about Kwon Yuri, she’s in the chemistry building right now. I’m waiting for her too.”
Somehow, I feel curious about Yuri so I raise my brow and I cross my arms. She must think I’m a total b*tch right now but whatever.
“And why is that?”
“She called for an emergency meeting which is why everyone is here.”
“Oh.” I drop my arms and I start to walk away.
I guess I’ll bother her some other time.
Then I hear Yuri’s familiar voice on the background.
“Hey, sorry I’m running a little late.”
Her tone of voice is different from what I’m used to. It’s a bit stern and demanding.
Whatever I really don’t have time to wait for her just to hi, I think I’m gonna go home.
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I’m here at the food court eating my lunch with my oppa and I am just bored. He does nothing but talk about soccer, the upcoming play and then some more soccer.
I’ll just ignore him for now. I don’t think he’ll mind.
I stare at my noodles as I slowly it. This kinda reminds me of Yuri again, when we first had dinner. She was so shy around me that she didn’t look at me for the entire time that she focused all her attention to eating her noodles.
I wish things didn’t turn out like this between us, I don’t know, I guess I feel kinda bad for hurting her.
“Hey, I gotta go. I just got a text from Minzy. I’ll see you tomorrow okay?”
“Okay, bye oppa.” Ugh thank God.
I stand up and prepare to leave so I take my bag and I walk to the exit.
Then I feel someone bump my side and all her folders fall to the ground.
“Oh I’m sorry!” I hear her say, but I pay no attention. I stand frozen on my tracks.
It was Yuri. She’s a bit skinnier than before and I can see slight dark spots on her eyes. She seems to be stressed.
I continue to look at her face, carefully observing her changed looks. Just like me, she looks slightly intimidated.
Then I take notice of the girl that dropped her folders giving me a 90-degree bow.
“I’m so sorry for what happened!”
“It’s okay.” I softly say, my eyes are looking at Yuri again.
“I’m really sorry but I need to go.”
I then see the same girl put her fingers around Yuri’s and I feel annoyed with it. That was the same hand I held onto, a few months ago.
Then she drags Yuri past me.
“Honey, we really have to go. Yoona will get mad if we don’t get this done by today.” She hurriedly added.
Yuri says nothing but she walks along. Our eyes, still fixed on each other.
Yuri, have you forgotten me?
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(Seven. Recollection.)