Last year on my birthday I wrote a reflective entry about the previous year. I let him read it once during a snowy January night when we were far enough apart I wouldn’t have to see the change in his eyes as he discovered a different side of me for the first time. He asked if it was something I did every year. It isn’t. But as another year passes, ( Read more... )

I just wanted to say, that even though I haven’t been around in a while and I’m sure you’re no longer listening…I still write. I still wrote. On rare occasions. And I’m still attempting (though very slowly) to write an extensive totally awesome unbelievable catch up entry!

The urges are still there, which is reassuring. But they’re easier to stifle now…which of course scares the shit out of me. I hate that my creativity can be so absentmindedly discarded sometimes. Especially lately. The important part is that I am doing it now. I am trying to purge out all these thoughts (that I hope are worth something) before they ( Read more... )

Dear future Lauren ( Read more... )

There was a party last night and I didn’t expect to see him there. Or maybe I did, because I cut my hair and waxed my eyebrows and wore a sequined top and put on “night makeup”. Blah. Either way…he showed up. So I sprinted to the bathroom and took a deep breathe and shared a few secrets with a girl I hardly knew. Then I had exaggerated fun and all ( Read more... )

( loves a train wreck, you're a mistake )

Well I was looking for a cliché reason to cut my hair.

1.Where did the first time you kissed the last person you kissed take place ( Read more... )

( Summer left and no one said a word )

You ever have one of those moments where all you want to do is talk to someone but you don’t even know why? After all, the last thing you actually want is to have a real conversation. You’ve had enough of your day to lose all desire for regurgitation. But you still feel the need for connection. Just talking. Words with no real impact other then ( Read more... )