Demon

[jadedcontrition]

Monsieur Manning and Madame Bodine have recently brought to our attention that this demon within Lestat is aroused by certain passions. Strong emotions such as anger or lust seem to set it free and we have been asked to keep him under control while they continue their research. This is, of course, easier said than done. Though I do have some

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[thedizzywriter]

Ok I've come back with yet more. I neglected to mention in my first post that Thorazine has some pretty gross side effects. Bare in mind this stuff has been called a "chemical lobotomy", and while some patients are fine, a lot when they are under the influence are practically zombies without too much depth of feeling. These effects are not permanent, however and once he's taken off he'll be perfectly back to himself, if a little shaken up by the experience

[flambeauvivant]

I appreciate your thoroughness, but I have no intention of being drugged. Oh, I can be drugged. It's possible. Chemicals do work on us, if sporadically. The dose must be very high and the effects wear off very quickly.

The one thing that remains mine alone is my conscious mind. I'm not eroding my grip on it.

[thedizzywriter]

I wouldn't want that for you anyway. I've seen patients on Thorazine in person and they are like the living dead. This stuff was developed as a chemical alternative to lobotomy, to give the same effect without permanent results. It seems hellish to me. I've had experience with the others too, personally and... Well I didn't have fun to put it mildly, but I placed them here because most people react positively and it helps you calm yourself rather than switching you off enrirely. It's taken in the moment, not all the time or daily.

I only wish to help. Again I'm sorry for making such suggestions. I think the last two would be more helpful anyway, the sensory and OT. Keeping yourself busy and as calm as possible.

[flambeauvivant]

Don't worry on that score. I'm not beaten.

[flambeauvivant]

I dreamed something this morning, just before the sun rose.

You and I were together with a dozen candles lighting the room. It looked very like the old parlor at Royal Street, but somehow it wasn't. Time bled around us, merging moments from the past with the present and I could feel the mingling of everything we have shared, greed and lies, the claustrophobic silence and your questions pattering with the rain on the banana leaves outside. The shadows on the walls looked like blood and your eyes burned cold with malice.

Of course, I could simply be insane.

Do you think it can access my memories? Where does it go when I'm asleep? I have a horror of it picking my memories like carrion.

[seraph_tenshi]

Oh Jesus Christ, just take a room already.

[flambeauvivant]

We did. This is Louis' own journal.

[jadedcontrition]

I don't know what it does when you sleep, cher. Dreams of the past are not uncommon for you. Does it really matter if this demon shares your memories or sees your dreams? What harm can that cause? Preventing it from gaining any sort of control over you is what it most important now.

[beautesauvage13]

Yeah. OK.  Here's the thing. This is odd.  Odd and it's making me extremely uncomfortable for reasons.  I know the reasons but I'm not about to discuss those reasons with anyone here except to say that for me this has gone beyond being too serious.  Been down that road before.  Not going down it again. Ever.

Good luck.

Athena

[whiteroses81]

I'm not sure I can be of much help. Except in the dream realm. But if I could help,it should have worked already.

I'm confidant you both will find a way to work it out. If you can't tell when it came into him, how will you know when it leaves? Other then provokation which is a scary thought.

[flambeauvivant]

Ah, my love, thank you. Really, that's all I need. Yes, I'll find a solution. This thing had better not try to put down any roots because I'm going to yank it clean out. But in the meantime your sweetness is better than any balm.

[whiteroses81]

I hope that this thing is out soon. You not getting 'passionate' is not something I can bare LOL.

[sr_kalika]

I'm actually liking the dog idea? Maybe a couple. Fidget spinners might be good too (I'm joking..) we already know favorite movies/books. We are all willing to try what we can. Maybe being able to write. Since your back on the island. No dueling. No competing.