So I think it all got too much for me and I had to take 2.5 mental health days off work last week before I felt capable of going back last Fri ( Read more... )

So I think things are over with Mark and I, far more prematurely than I would have liked. It's quite disappointing actually and I don't think anyone except me knew how much I liked him. Some of the problem was that I didn't show him that. Another part was my aversion to rushing into a relationship, which I thought was sensible. But both of us have ( Read more... )

As anticipated, and without much difficulty, this week has been significantly better than last week ( Read more... )

Keeps on a-comin'! Well, not this week, this week so far I've decided to move out of my flat, I've discovered I can claim something else on insurance from my previous claim that I forgot about, my phone has come back from repair, I've won a 3 day double pass with pit passes to the Hamilton 400 V8s and I have an interview to be a Front of House ( Read more... )

Weird life parallels between us ( Read more... )

Lol this journal paints such an uphappy picture of my life. I guess the only time I get to write in it is when I'm feeling sad ( Read more... )

I feel a bit better this week after seeing friends on the weekend and talking to Mark who doesn't seem overly involved which is good. He's old enough to take a mature approach to things I think. Buut still don't feel like going out and I still don't want someone to like me. I feel like a change, but I don't know what.

I'm a bit over going out at the moment. Haven't felt much like doing so, and when I do, out of habit, I regret it. Feels like a waste of time and money for zero enjoyment. Sick of same faces, etc. Music was mean last night, but I did NOT want to be there. And because I got a ride in, much appreciated, but not necessary, I had not car to escape in ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm on a reality dating show lol. Always seems to be a choice between a good friend who wants something more and a possibly less idea pretty boy. And it is again. In the end I just push everyone away and go on by myself heh. I have fun with Mark he makes me laugh and isn't unattrative. We have similar interests, his friends seem nice, ( Read more... )

I have been thinking of moving closer to town. And thinking of going to the UK this year. And thinking of how awesome the stuff is I'd have to leave to do so ( Read more... )