Why do I put everything off, like seriously is it that I'm afraid of failure or is it that I'm afraid of sucesses, I always said its a little of both but people say that doesn't make any sense. Like right now I have to be calling Mercy (the hospital here in DSM) to see if I can get my x-rays because I have a Dr's apt @ home on Monday that I need ( Read more... )

No matter how hard I try I'm not happy with myself. I feel the need to push people constnatly to test them. What I think is not making me happy in life is not whats really not making me happy. I am not happy with myself. And no person is going to change that. So the question is do I keep things as they are, this is obviously in my relationship ( Read more... )

ugh, I think I fucked it up with the boy. He wont come out and say it but I can tell hes annoyed with me, its not like I've never been annoyed with him I definitly had, but god only knows how much he can tolerate of me. I just don't want to lose him but lets be honest, If i was a guy I probably wouldn't stay with me . . .

Sometimes I amaze even myself.  I've delt with what I've been through so well.   Plus it gives me the ability to give some damn good advice.  Go Me.

Procrastination is like masterbation. Its only fun until you realize you just fucked yourself.

AKA I am totally screwed looks like a no sleep night for me, I am gonna need about 10 drinks tommrow.

1. Are you a child of the 70s, 80s, or 90s?
80s/90s

2. Where were you born?
Milwaukee

3. What city did you grow up in?
Menomonee Falls

4. Did you enjoy your childhood?
Up to age 8 I did, after that it got a bit rough

5. When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?
It changed every day

6. What do you want to be now?
Well I guess a ( Read more... )

So I've obvioulsy been toying with ending this journal, I would need to start a new one because I need to write, and doing it on the computer is so much easier then doing it on paper.  I've just gotten in trouble so many times for people reading this journal.  Its hard to belive so many of my friends are that interested in my life.  So anyway I ( Read more... )

TWO DAYS AGO I ( Read more... )

Bears fans are annoying, Peyton Deserved to win, so I'm glad the superbowl turned out as it did.

I had every intention of keeping up on this but I guess all good intentions fall through. I find des moines depressing. I want a dog.