There are times that the memory of you still haunts me. I found a cd I you burned for me the other day…listening to it took me back to the day you made it. Not all of our memories are bad, some are just more tainted than others with your bittersweet way that you loved me. I heard a song on the radio the other day called “I love the way you lie” ( Read more... )

There are days I just miss you. I know that we weren't good for each other. I get that. It was crazy and insane and neither of us were in the right state of mind through most of the relationship. But those moments when things were real and we weren't high, I felt your love and I know it was real ( Read more... )

Wow. Last time I updated was 175 weeks ago. Damn ( Read more... )

*Sigh ( Read more... )

I've decided to do something for myself for once.

I'm afraid of what the future will be and what might happen. But I think I need to do this. I need my life back.

I am officially homeless. I am going to be out of my apartment by noon today. Most of my things are going into storage. A car load will go with me to where I can stay until the 24th. After that I have no place, no where to sleep, nothing nada zip ( Read more... )

I feel used up, empty and hollow. The things that used to make me happy now only make me wish I wasn't alive. The things that presently make me smile aren't really making me happy. They're eating away at my soul, smothering my heart and washing away anything left of me ( Read more... )

They said this should do the trick, accepting it. I'm not sure. I know I'm supposed to let it slide, that's all I'm ever telling myself, go with the flow, roll with the punches, take it as it comes. And I try, I do try. I'm just not sure it's hurting less now. Time has a way of making it go away, they say. After a while it won't seem as wrong, or ( Read more... )

My life has been turned upside down, back upright, and so forth. It's a constant cycle of wrong vs. right, time vs. reality and pain vs. pleasure. My heart has been so torn up inside, right now I'm not sure how much of one I have left these days ( Read more... )

Running on empty is a good way to get everywhere you never wanted to be.