I've come to the plain and simple conclusion that no one will ever get close to me again. Pain is inevitable. And those who you let in are the ones that cause it. A stranger will never harm you emotionally...and a close friend would never harm you physically. Ironic, in a sense ( Read more... )

I almost quit my job today. Albeit, it's been sometime since I've written in here. I haven't talked about damn near anything that's been going on in my life and I'm sorry for that, but I'm gonna let a lot out here. Some of which might not make any sense. But here goes ( Read more... )

I went to bed for all of 3 hours, until the DHL guy came to my door with my new phone. I have expected them to not even send a new one. God knows the lady on the phone was too fucking stupid to understand me ( Read more... )

I went out with Brandon again tonight. I need to develop the balls to tell him that I'm not interested in a relationship with him because I don't have even the slightest idea of where I stand in that. With Erik, with my emotions, with anything. I just need the freedom to deal with myself at the moment ( Read more... )

He canceled.

Hey, so I'm officially an average member of Society. I got my GED!

After talking with Meghan, she made me laugh a little and I felt better about the whole situation, but I still felt this gaping hole of shittiness whenever I thought about it. It's not the end of the world, and I know that, but it still feels like it ( Read more... )

If there's one thing that almost everyone's ever told me. It's that I have a flare for the dramatic. Which is true. The last entry wasn't a lie. I had a really shitty morning, but after receiving a comment from misto and getting out of the house for a day, I felt better. Like a lot better. Not so much because I realized it wasn't a big deal, but rather ( Read more... )

So I sit down and I have this big talk with my brother about how we're arguing and why I'm irritated and why he's emotional and it eventually gets to the deep-seated problem about me having nothing to do in this house except browse the internet and clean...because God only knows that there's nothing on TV (the whole 3 channels that we have). ( Read more... )

So, life just keeps getting more and more interesting. Kendall's been pushing me a lot, but I found out recently that I'm not the only one that sees it. Kris has realized that Kendall and I have been fighting mainly due to him not treating me as he treats Kris...like a roommate as opposed to his younger brother. It's nice, though, to know that I'm ( Read more... )