Well kids...

[jaderowan8580]

I've only got a few more weeks left in England. A month or two at the most. Found this out today, and while I was seriously upset at first, I've had a moment to think about it and I am actually really excited about it. My location opportunities are endlessly open for where to move when I go home. Cali, Mississippi, New York (if a friend will

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[kittenboo]

what happened?

[jaderowan8580]

Dumb shit. I think my friendship with Wills ended in January and I just didn't want to admit it. We've been fighting on and off (more on than off) since the beginning of the year. He has been in love with me for ages and I don't return that sentiment at all. So it's been a bit shit for both of us. There is a nearly palpable tension. I can't live like this anymore, and he can't either so I'm coming home. You do know the proposed marriage would have only happened to keep me in this country, right? I have been having problems with that since it was first mentioned. As much as I didn't want to come home broke, and with a bruised ego, pride and money are just not enough to keep me here. The more I thought about it, the more I realized that there was no way I could marry him. It just seemed wrong...plus, I don't want to be married. Even if I wanted a relationship right now, it would not be with him. The only person I've ever met that is as controlling as he is is my step-father. I can't deal with his mood swings and feeling

[kittenboo]

yeah I don't think getting married in order to stay sounds like the best plan if he's in love with you and is that controlling. It definitely sounds like time to get out of this situation.

I'm sorry it turned out this way.

[jaderowan8580]

Don't be sorry. I'm not. I'm feeling pretty good right now. Like I can breathe a bit easier. Feeling more like myself for the first time in ages. This is good.

[masamanaris]

yes...what happened?

[jaderowan8580]

Please see above message. lol

[wandererrob]

For what it's worth, maybe this is the change you need? It sounded like things were getting pretty rough over there all around. I'm sorry it didn't work out better though. Good luck on the return stateside!

[jaderowan8580]

I think it's exactly what I need, and I can't wait to come home. This has been, even considering all of the shit, a really good experience and I managed to make quality friends. I do not regret the stay in the UK, but am now anxious to get home.

[wandererrob]

I was just poking around my friends list and wondered, "I wonder how things turned out for her".

I hope the return home has gone well and life is good.

Now back to seeing who else dropped off the radar. :)

[dokai]

Welcome back, Beautiful! I wish it was under happier circumstances, of course. Sounds like you getting out of there will be the best thing for both of you. *hugs*

[grovesphoto]

I have a couch her in Los Angeles calling your name, too...LOL