I have thoughts on covid culture I’m not ready to write out right now but remind me to do that. The counter productivity of social shaming and what it’s like working in covid response and struggling with the effects of the politicization of it ( Read more... )

I’m sleepy and kind of drunk so this will be short. I broke up with kimmee the other day. Mostly bc she’s vaguely racist and even though she was trying and willing to read the stuff I gave her, i just lost so much respect for her. It’s not her fault she’s a spoiled rich white girl, but it’s also not my fault I can’t relate to her. And every time ( Read more... )

Broke up with Jackie. Seeing someone new. No idea what I’m doing but hoping I figure it out in 2021. Super excited about my second dose on the 11th and being fully vaccinated.


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The pandemic fatigue is real. Sometimes I just sit in my car crying outside my house and I’m not even sure why. It’s just exhausting. I’m exhausted.

Here’s to hoping we can get this thing under control.


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I want to write but I’m 6 days a week at the DOH right now and after work I’m at the gym and after the gym I’m writing essay after essay for med school secondary apps ( Read more... )

It’s midnight and fall in Florida so there’s a breeze that blows the heat across the asphalt to wrap around my ankles. Streetlights are really more indifferent than spotlights and the leaves can’t be bothered to whisper at this lazy wind. It’s stillness-heavy-clear. And in this -pause ( Read more... )

Lex was talking to me about how she feels like I’m very much not healed and she would love to see me not compare him or reference that relationship and actually move on, and I was like yeah I mean that’s fair ( Read more... )

512. Not as great as I wanted. But it’s still the 85th percentile. So it’s ok.

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I took the MCAT today. It was terrible.

I saw that he called her “the love of [his] life.” And it’s sticking with me. I don’t understand it. I don’t understand him. Which is weird because if I don’t know him then who was I about to marry ( Read more... )