What kills me the most right now is I have not heard a single person tell me that they are happy for me. Happy that I found somebody that wants to be with me as much as I want to be with them. I've been single for almost two years and it's like everybody expected it to stay that way forever. Always the one that people would call to talk to at ( Read more... )

its funny how some people never grow up. they 'move on' from you but they still take those shots at you that they dont think you will notice. i can read you well and i know why you say and do the things you do. youre still angry at me. you have this pent-up anger towards me. it was nothing more than a crush for me. but it faded fast, and thats not ( Read more... )

I dont even know where to begin with this right now. I am so beyond frustrated with everything right now. Maybe more so in myself than anything else. I dont know. I try to always trust my gut when it tells me that something is wrong, but sometimes I cant help but stray. and probably sure enough in the long run, it will come back to haunt me. i so ( Read more... )

A lot has happened this past week but not so sure that any of it is worth posting about. Mainly just useless ranting about my job and such. I will flat out say it. I hate my new job. It is so boring that it is excrutiatingly painful. Im very angry about Shaun not offering me the severence package when they decided my old job was, in a sense, ( Read more... )

Monday mornings are the worst. That's the only conclusion I can come up with right now. Im staring blankly at a computer screen over a cup of coffee that is way too hot that I've loaded up with French Vanilla Coffeemate Creamer. (Thats Right! Im a walking billboard!) Thinking about work and how I'm dreading going. Monday customers are the worst. ( Read more... )

It's funny how I thought this would be a good idea. I used to enjoy writing, it was my therapy. But its been so long that I feel overwhelmed by the things I could write about. Not to mention that I am hesitant to write what I truly do feel. I don't want people to see my vulnerability. I'm afraid that if i let someone know me, they'll hurt me. Maybe ( Read more... )