Well... Whatever. I'm so frustrated with life...but whatever. It's all going away as I go away..Course it'll probably drag along with me and plague my dreams. No one cares...I'm too negative for this shit anyways.

I'm Soo sick of Caring For you.

Today..was the scariest day of my life. Never in my existence have I prayed so much that someone was Ok and safe. I was waiting for pot and Danielle to come home, She said she was leaving early and by 8:00 she wasn't home. 8:10 Rolled around and I was just getting frustrated. Melissa wasn't calling when she said she'd be at my house in 20 minutes ( Read more... )

This world is the Panick that Courses through my veins. The thought that this reality is "Real" is mind-fucking. I will beat whatever is in my Way. I will Conquer my Fears and they will Know who is King. I will Forget these things dragging and holding me back. I will be Me once More. I will..I know it...I feel it. It's in me there, digging to get ( Read more... )

It's no secret...I suffer from a Panick Disorder and it's slowly making me Agoraphobic. I can't go to six flags anymore...I can't travel in cities cause large buildings and heights scare me to do some stupid nightmare(s) i've had. I can't Relax. And it sucks. I want so badly to just rid this, why not? I don't get how I went from Fearing Absolutely ( Read more... )

Day 2 of trying to remove myself of panick and anxiety attacks. It's not going to fucking good...I have them in my sleep now. I don't know if it's anxiety attacks or if it's my lungs themselves..But i'm forced to wake up and can't fucking Breathe. I think it's just anxiety attacks though. I'm just so short on breath now...I hate my life ( Read more... )

Ah..Forgot to mention, Tom called today, he admitted that the last time we chilled, he was acting gay(Not Literally) and is now back to his pot smoking self. Good. However he's smoking with holly now and thats a good way to fuck things up between them, cause they're doing so good and they have an apartment together; and pot can certainly ruin that ( Read more... )

So today was kinda a shitty day, but ended pretty good. It started off with me waking up and having that alcohol burning sensation in my stomach and an awful taste in my mouth. I was still hysterically sad, the night before Really Sucked. I cried and puked out of no where on my parent's towel...Fuck em. But anyways, today I went to the Zoo with ( Read more... )

Blahahaha...Whatever

Fuck, I think i'm sunburned....Anyways..Oh boy do I have an update for you people that might read this...Or just copy this from your printer; it'll make good toilet-reading material. Anyways. So let me start off...Saturday I went to Danielle's graduation party, I had a problem though, i had no shirt to wear so I scrubbed it out and wore my black ( Read more... )