one day somebody will love me....i mean really love me..not the bullshit ive experienced thusfar in life. i just wonder if i will have anything left to give them.

ive come to determain that my heart is a very very confusing thing... lol my head says to forget about her, and move on, yet everytime she comes back to maryland... i go right back... wtf mate  but other then that i have feelings... for somebody that i shouldnt ( yea, really new in my book) but the fact that shell likley not want to hear it, the ( Read more... )

another friend is dead today..... this is getting crazy.... im too young to be losing friends my age to death.... this is fucking crazy and to top it all off... the three bastards that did it are at my work.... funeral on friday.... how many more times can i do this?

ok, so i honestly had the two best days off ive ever had...... absolutley amazing..... and on saturday night..... i had probably the best hour and a half of my life..... wow.....moments ill remember forever..... anyway ( Read more... )

my heart is seriously alll over the place.... and i have exactly 5 days to figure it out

nights like tonight let me know that i'm always going to be ok. nights like tonight...... heh....make me feel amazing.

...makes me smile like noone ever will :-)

Life is Entertaining.... i love it. I really am happy... for the first time in a VERY long time. i have my friends... i have my family... i feel whole again.I have literally the best friends on earth... they really look out for me... and im glad to have em. I smile all the time again.... i have ME back.... i have everything back that i used to be. ( Read more... )

im.... really..... confused   yea thats all

...i just want to be free......... yea thats all