A seed of doubt can grow into a tree so large that it will block the sun, the moon, and all reality to a point that you can see nothing but fear and pain ( Read more... )

...are a painful and wicked plague. A single person's broken heart can wound an entire group. Sucking the warmth and light from any room. Bitterness can overwhelm even the strongest of wills. You reach your hand out to offer support, love, respect, and tenderness, but you recieve pain, hostility, absence and neglect. There is no right answer, and ( Read more... )

Sun shining down warming our skin. Cool breeze sending a shiver down my spine. Looking out you can see people playing in the distance, some are tossing a baseball, others a frisbee. We lay side by side looking to the clouds for answers, but we only see images. We share our dreams and confide in one another. All feels complete. I touch your hand, ( Read more... )

Yesterday evening as I was helping my sister move a very dear and close friend of my family who lives in West Seattle passed away suddenly. There was no known ailments, his heart just stopped. He was found sitting in his home office chair with the cat in his lap. His skin was cold to the touch. His wife was with us helping my sister when she found ( Read more... )

I saw it coming... just wasn't what I was expecting..

I'm terrified of success, only because I don't want to lose it all again. I see so many things falling into place in my life and I know things could be really good for me. I have had so many dreams and I see opportunities for them to come true, but I'm deathly afraid to let it happen because I don't think I'm strong enough to deal with the loss, if ( Read more... )

The movie flickers on the screen ( Read more... )

There is a certain person that has recently entered my life only to throw my entire world for a loop. I find myself falling faster than I could possibly imagine and am completely terrified at how comfortable it feels. I know she is thinking similar thoughts. It's truly scary when you start to realise that the things you've dreamed about not only ( Read more... )

And what a strange twisted trip it's been. This post is purely dedicated to my quasi-so-called-somewhat-sister-in-law. I mainly want to put my thanks out into the universe for those friends that I've made in the last several years and I want them to know how much I truly do appreciate them. I've been through some fucked up shit and they've stuck by ( Read more... )

I'm pretty fucked in the head I think.. I want to be happy so bad, but I find myself lying in my bed and unable to find reasons to get up. Masturbating is beginning to feel like a chore more than a pleasure. Nothing I eat tastes good. I am having toothaches constantly. I am constanltly tired, but can never sleep. Even in social instances where I am ( Read more... )