Had a werid nite, last night, i bearly sleep these days, my little sister got way to drunk and i had nothing to do with this, by the time i went out side she was already wasted and there was this guy there trying to fuck her i almost killed him and so me and my dad took care of her, she was crying to the point she couldn't breath i thought she was ( Read more... )

Ive been thinking and I feel really werid right now... i dont know whats happening, its like no matter what happens i keep losing hold of reality and i dont know where its going its just leaving , i never sleep anymore, i feel like i sleep but in all reality i know im just laying stairing off into space, and my eyes never close and its killing, ( Read more... )

So i got this myspace account and I find my old friends from middle school, Jason and Ashley, I still talked to jason for awhile but we lost touch at some point i move alot so that has alot to do with it i think. But ashley was the werid one, i haven't talked to her in like years since i was 18 and now im 21, so about 4 years, shes doing well, but ( Read more... )

two years ago, i was a different person, i was lost and hopeless, Henry died two years ago today and it seem strange how much i have changed since then, i was dying from the lose of him, i tryed to kill myself and failed. it was a diferent time then. Me and Jenn were not friends, me and todd were together, i had just meet lauren, aaron, paul, and ( Read more... )

today was totally a TOM kind of day, i go and get the blood test done, it was pretty easy. the blood tech was awsome to say the least only took her maybe 5 mins to do it. the when im in the car disturbed comes on and i thought of tom then when i got home i turned on the tv and golf was on, and thats so tom too, it was werid maybe this whole kidney ( Read more... )

i cant force myself to sleep so i guesss im just not going to go to bed at all today, theres so much werid shit going on in my brain, like i have to get a blood test tomorrow, thats the easiest thing i have to do, part of me is up cuz im worried about my dad, i so afraid of him dying on me, when hes home i can bearly sleep, i beat RE3 tonight on ( Read more... )

I have been thinking about something today, about how nice it was when we were all having fun, its was great, i loved it back then i know its stupid to think about the past but so much of it made me happy, we all were great, even thou there were some really bad times, most of them were filled with happiness and laughter... I miss laughing like we ( Read more... )

its been a while since i took the time to write in my journal, kinda been out of it lately. Been dealing with the fact that my fathers in the hospital, and its not good, hes been there for about 5 days now and its going to be alittle while before he comes home and i dont know what to do, for someone who wont help themselfves sometimes. Ive been ( Read more... )

if you want to talk to me on line... i can only have msn ... cant get aim
msn screen name razorspainme@hotmail.com

I'm still cleaning my room... god its pretty shitty its taking me this long. My moms here in ohio, and its kinda cool. I might come to Florida around my birthday again but im not sure........... I might not be able to do anythign by then if all goes well with this kidney thing. I need to ask tom about that, god i keep forgeting. JENN better go see ( Read more... )