why do things always end up like this...

im just being used.. wen people need help im there, but never the other way. leavin my head to contemplate is not a good thing, the result is always the same. i dont think anyone will see this post anyways..i hate this.. i see things starting to crumble again..

i dont know wat to fuckin do anymore im so depressed!

everything is crumbling down.
friendships are getting fucked.
social life is fucked.
family is fucked.
school is fucked.
everything is fucked.
i have nothing going for me anymore.
HOLY FUCK!

God really must hate me.

waterlooooooooooooooooooo was great, i had a very gud time. 4 days of those! haha im glad i got there thursday and even left late sunday nite. now its time to buckle down and get my ass into those textbooks of mines, midterms midterms are comin up soon and shit. then maybe mid november i can go visit again hahah, hopefully.

i feel like shit..

i feel so worthless..

nobody understands whats goin on in my head..

somebody up there really hates me.

if* i was a smoker i would of smoked 2 packs by now.

back to studying for me..

damn iunno wat to feel right now. its like a part of me is missing, its weird ( Read more... )

hmm i can sense it.. im not the only one feeling this way.

ive analyzed whats been said and its true.

nothing better turn for the worse.

damn im gonna miss summer**

im tired of LJ...

sigh too bad summers nearly done, such a sad thought..

iunno want to say right now but im in pain..

this is fucking BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

nobody fucking understands... im so fucking tired..
after this month its all downhill, and still shit happens.. im tired of it.. im trying to make the best of things but i just cant let go of these thoughts..

I JUST WANT TO DIE!

lj long time no see hahah ( Read more... )