Following a horrendous week for both of us, Shane and I decided to have sex for the first time last night. It's been pretty much unlike me to wait for much of anything the past couple years, so I guess you could say I've been slightly proud of myself. I'm attempting to do things right this time around, because oddly enough I'm feeling like I can ( Read more... )

Oh my, what a hellacious year... not even sure hellacious is a word, but I made it one, so there. I'm so disappointed with myself, upon looking back upon a couple of my most recent entries (although none of them are exactly recent at all), I seem so depressing and just bleh! I knew that there were times when I was like that, but god, I didn't ( Read more... )

All right then. Considering that it's been ages since I've written anything at all, let alone anything in here, I thought it might be about time to start again. Not a bad habbit. Seeing as how I stopped writing because of a guy, and started writing for myself.... it's about damn time. When I last left off, twas about 6 months since I had attempted ( Read more... )

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So considering that I once again forgot the ending of the msn email addresses, and thus cannot email Ben on his super secret, alter ego email account, I must instead write a note on my lame ass journal and attempt to contact him in this manner ( Read more... )

I had dinner with my Dad tonight, and as it turns out, lots of pieces in both of our lives are falling into place. He's going to meet his "long lost" son Jason, my half brother. And for some reason, that makes me really happy. Jason has apparently been searching for Dad for like 14 years, which seems crazy, but he is 29 years old. Dad had him when ( Read more... )

I'm watching Sleepers, a movie about the terrors four young boys faced, while in some sort of juveinille detention center. I can't imagine the things these people went through ( Read more... )

I haven't heard from Ben in a long ass time. I miss him, but I also don't really have any way to contact him either. Sucky ( Read more... )

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My entire family is visiting from all over. My aunt and uncle from Florida, my cousin and her girlfriend from New Jersey, and my other uncle from Idaho was supposed to visit for my cousin David's wedding last saturday. He decided that a gig with his band was more important though... his loss. This has seriously been one of the best visits, with ( Read more... )