another valuable lesson learned.
...the hard way.

RIP, stace

you will be missed.
<3

FF5 reunion= spice girls kareoke.

i hate us.

when life is full of the FF5,
drinking,
smoking,
and late night booty calls...

...life is good.

but in reality:

im broke.
i need a new job.
i hate my manager.
someone needs to buy this system and get it off my hands.
aaaaand my mom needs to get off my back.
aaaaaaaaaaaaand i think i failed every class this semester.

fuck.

i officially am over george schuhknecht ( Read more... )

my life couldn't get any more ridiculous ( Read more... )

so apparently  to most people on this planet i'm beautiful, gorgeous, hot, sexy.,...whatever... 
and apparently i have an awesome personality (on a good day) and i'm creative and unique...

but i have no motivation.
no drive.
no inspiration.
and i sure as hell have no desire to be in school.

so where the fuck is that gonna get me?

Fuck you Lucy George for leaving me.
Fuck you Lucy George for not needing me.
I wanna say fuck you because I still love you.
No, I'm not okay, and I don't know what to do.

....i don't know what to do.

smoking helps to ease the pain.
it numbs the emotions.
it helps me forget.
if i'm not high, i'm crying.
not because i feel sorry for me,
but because i can't ( Read more... )

wednesday, feb 14th. 
1:00 AM : vomitting begins.
8:00 AM: drive to work in a blizzard because my life is worth risking for the store over my manager's apparently.
...still sick to my stomach.
9:00 AM: store opens.
9:30 AM: sam relieves me from work and i drive home... in the blizzard.
10:00 AM: finally some sleep.
1:00 PM: wake up and puke some more
1:30 ( Read more... )

classes havent even started and my mind is already set on spring break ( Read more... )

e.
yayo.
heiny.
olde english.
trees.
shots at 9 AM.

i havent slept yet.
it was dark for like a year and a half.
i feel lika pile of shit.