am i just like those fucking women you read about and see in movies that are in these horrible abusive relationships but keeping going back. they make themselves believe its their fault that their husbands or boyfriends hit them. i feel like that almost. i might not of been physically abused, but definitely emotionally. i just cant believe i was so ( Read more... )

hopeful and optimistic. hopeful and optimistic. hopeful and optimistic. hopeful and optimistic. hopeful and optimistic. hopeful and optimistic. hopeful and optimistic. hopeful and optimistic. hopeful and optimistic. hopeful and optimistic. hopeful and optimistic. hopeful and optimistic. hopeful and optimistic. hopeful and optimistic. hopeful and ( Read more... )

so im making a list of all the things that need to happen... bc i need a change for the postive and i need to get my life back ( Read more... )

so apparently there is another girl already... and apparently he has been talking to this girl the week we broke up and shit seems pretty serious. pretty awesome huh? the week we break up and he already is interested in some other girl. sucks for me. she lives in california but her dad lives in new york and she is moving to new york soon. makes me ( Read more... )

2 fridays ago nick broke up with me... in a fucking letter. i was seriously devastated. i couldnt even believe he was actually breaking up with me. the last week or two before that things kinda fell back the way they were before we took that 4 month break. he was back to doing the band thing all day long for two days, and whenever he was home, he ( Read more... )

nick and i managed to work things out... for now. he is living back at home. things have been pretty okay. a few fights here and there. i still have my guard up. after the last 4 months of him not living here and just kinda being a complete stranger and lying and hiding shit, the trust i had is completely gone. its definately going to be a very ( Read more... )

my life is sucha mess right now ( Read more... )

so nick decided the beginning of november he wanted to take a break... after i kinda blew up on him bc he is neverrrr home. whatever issues there may be in our relationship stem from him not being home and spending time with his family. its been almost 1 month since he left, and shows no signs of coming home, nor does he even have any answers for ( Read more... )

i feel like venting. i dont even care if anyone reads this. i dont even know if people even use livejournal anymore. but i was bored and randomly came on here to look back at old entries ( Read more... )

oh my godddd i want this baby outtttt ( Read more... )