i can hardly call it life anymore. more like stress. daves out of work collecting umemploymentment. i have my dumb court case. absolute bull. my tether thats 420 a month. so annoying. my life is not my own. i have no idea where my life will be in a month. prison. home? not sure. i am deeply hurt by whats going on. i can not believe maria took it ( Read more... )

life is crazy. dont know whats going to happen...scared. very scared. have not seen dylan since aug 3, i am going nuts. feeling very sad tonight. i want my baby back and my life.

its sunday and im feeling cracked out, we were up thurs we did coke. then fri night we got more. why do we do this? after that i pigged out sat and sunday and didnt go to the gym. stress makes us do it. ugh! i feel so fat i must have gained 10 lbs and dropped my iq down a few points all the eatting and drugs i did. :(

UGH I AM LAZY LATELY I HAVE NOT BEEN TO THE GYM IN A FEW DAYS. I CAN BRING MYSELF TO DO ANYTHING. WHY? HELL IF I KNOW IM A NATURAL LAZY ASS.

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i cannot belive my life right now!!! the false things maria is saying about me. life right now fricking sucks i have no idea whats gonna happen with it i am so scared. its contiuously on my mind! well me and dave went on a shopping spree we spent like 1200 between us, his stupis sunglasses were 200.00 i was gonna get some chanels or gucci glasses ( Read more... )

Well things are back to normal, complete normal. thank god! well my eyes are almost normal, since i got the big knot on my forehead ,for some reason they have dark circles underneath. its kinda bugging me and i have no idea why its taking so long to heal. hopefully its gonna heal! well i got back to the gym right away when i was healed and i been ( Read more... )

wahoo..im not pregnant thats always good.

The weather was rainy and yucky so i was feeling lazy, plus i am feeling kinda sore from working out yesterday. well i have been doing sooooo good with eatting and exercising! i am gonna go bike riding for a half an hour or so later tonight. then tomorrow amanda and i are going to the gym again. im really gonna step it up a notch tomorrow, i wanna ( Read more... )

well i guess i always think i have some kind of disorder of some kind but i have a hard time falling asleep and sometimes a hard time staying asleep. i went to sleep around 9 tonight and it took me only about 30 min to fall asleep, but i was up at 130 taking cough med. and i have been up ever since. i am going to the gym at 9 so im hoping i can go ( Read more... )

on tuesday me and amanda went to workout for our 1st time. it went well, it wasnt to bad at all. then we went tanning. their tanning hex is pretty strong. i liked it. well today we are going to an apointment at 230 to look at some offices, we are giving them a price. we will clean the after work hours every weekend. Dylan and Dave just left for a ( Read more... )