Zach and I are done. I don't think I ever meant anything to him anyway. This hurts so fucking much. I have no idea where to go. I have options, but none of them feel right. I can't hang out with one because of a previous situation. Another because he is no good for me. And the other because it is just so wrong. Nothing ever feels right anymore. I ( Read more... )

I'd stopped writing in this for years now, but I'm at a loss for what to do at this point. Everything is going my way, but still I am unhappy with my life. I miss Zach and summertime, and all the happiness. I miss Kristin, Jude, and the quiet of my house. This is not what I thought college would be like. Mostly though, I miss Zach. I miss ( Read more... )

But basically ( Read more... )

This is the last thing I want to do to explain everything to myself,
but this is what I need to do right now.

It was the first night in awhile that Emily and I hung out. First I went to Kevin's and almost had sex with him. No big deal though, because that's what Kevin and I do. We're a serious of unfortunate mishaps, and second, third and fourth ( Read more... )

SOMETIMES
I still miss you.

And then I remember things can be amazing with anyone.

I just have to make things that way.


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I have pneumonia.

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at least I think so.

Gee, I hope I don't drown in all the fluid in my lungs.

How tragic.

I'm not going to beat you up moron ( Read more... )

I just don't even know what to write about anymore.
I hate girls.
Yes, you.
You know it, too.
You're so fake
And you play games with people.
You just expect people to go along with it, too.
I'm done watching you play your games with people.
Play your games with someone else's friends.
Stay away from mine.
I don't buy your crap anymore.
I'd like to take some ( Read more... )

Yesterday would've been four months.

And cannonball into the water;;
Lately when I try to post a journal, it doesn't work.

Wave is good,
People I hate.
Especially one person,
Who I can't stand to be around.
You will never make it to a Wave Competition on my watch.

Annoying as all hell some people are.
I wish they'd just move away.
I wouldn't mind.

But things aren't always that easy.
People ( Read more... )