how am i supposed to be concentrating on my reading when there is really loud porn & sex going on next door. too flustered and amused to go on ( Read more... )

i just spent a long time writing an entry, but then i deleted it. half of my life feels really great right now, but half of it feels so fucked. it almost makes it more painful. i dont wanna contaminate good with evil. i think i'm gonna write some song lyrics, watch some forensics on tv and hit the hay. kev just called. looks like i'll see ( Read more... )

Today i dyed my hair and then kevin, john, and aaron came over and we watched scarface. sick fucking movie =P then kev and i had our alone time. i've never been so free of fear before when i've been with someone. i'm really happy with how things are going with him, and i think he's happy too. anyway, then kev and i went to the wilson private ( Read more... )

wow, i'm very behind on updating my journal. not last weekend but the one before, i had a fucking great time with cristina on friday night. we just got fucked up and chilled. then mel joined us for the same shit the next night. school and weather kicked my ass during the week (feb 10th-14th), then i went to mel's for the weekend to celebrate ( Read more... )

i fucking fucking fucking hate our government ( Read more... )

Mel is not doin well at all (more uterus problems) Hopefully she will find a doctor or a hospital that has actually dealt with gyno issues other than having babies. I really do fucking hate every aspect of this world. So much hate can only make one very very very very unhappy if not insane ( Read more... )

well, i obviously can't summarize what's been going on the past couple months... basically it REALLY REALLY sucked. i think i'll just start from jan 14th, when i came back to MA. mel picked me up and i ended up staying at her place in Woburn (~15 minutes from Boston) I was still sick. i'd had this really bad flu/cold whatever since new years ( Read more... )

life is sucking so hard right now i really really really dont want to write about it ( Read more... )

rarrr, i'm gonna have to tell my dean i need to meet with her to fess up what's been going on the past couple semesters (but more specifically, the last few weeks of the semester) if i get kicked out for what i say, whatever, my parents will need to get over it. i'm dysfunctional and irrational and smith is not the place for this and my ( Read more... )

my parents think i'm on vacation in san diego right now. i'm sure this is exactly how they view my life: vacation after vacation spoiled little rich girl parents raised her well she'll be frame-able after finishing school lafayette trophy wife with no husband no kids but a great travel log. they'd love to ship me off to Semester At Sea, tell all ( Read more... )