Just say

"I told you so."

I'm having a moral dilema.
I guess you could call it that.

Really, I'm just having a lot of hesitation with a lot of things.

I don't even know what to write. I need to get something out, lots of things. In the open. Not to prove any one thing, just to.. I don't know, sort things out in text format.

nevermind

Just an F.Y.I. but maybe you already all know this.

I'm not a very nice person. Not lately. And maybe not ever. Just wanted you to know. You in general, not specific.

This is purely for remembering the day. That's about all ( Read more... )

Today

Dan came over briefly

I did many loads of laundry and am not quite finished

I cleaned

I drank coffee and bought some toothpaste

I dug a nice little hole for myself to sit in and look up at people from

I stayed up way too late.

Something must be wrong with me.

I don't feel like doing anything. Besides the things I'm obligated to do, like go to school and work. Homework? Blech. Cleaning? No sir. Errands? Think again. Dealing with personal affairs? Not in this life.

I JUST GOT MY CHECK IN THE MAIL FROM THE GOVERNMENT!!! FOR PAYING RENT LAST YEAR!!!!! $876!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! You have no idea how great that is. Soooo great! Also!! I'm getting a raise to $8/hr I think. So that's +$1/hr than I was making!!! :D :D :D :D :D

I'm completely confused still ( Read more... )

So, here I am. I'm stuck in and amongst a bout of I don't know what... Me maybe, trying to figure out what I want in life. What I want to know. Figuring out where the people in my life fit into the scheme of things. Whether or not I should take into consideration other's feelings when deciding my fate. Obviously referring to my relationship. ( Read more... )

I heard a buzzing noise. I did. And I stopped. And I looked. And I saw nothing. There it was again.... longer and more persistant than before. I always hold my hair when I think there is a bug flying around. It makes me nervous. I really don't like bugs, but only when they are inside. THey don't belong inside. I discovered where the noise ( Read more... )