soooo. I went to the doc on wednesday and she perscribed me this medicine to take that's for diabetics. I'm not diabetic though. Since I have a little disease called PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome) then every bit of carbs that go into my body are turning into stored fat. The funny thing is is that i may or may not have cysts on my ovaries. It's ( Read more... )

So I've figured out the reason I haven't lost weight in about month even though I've been working my butt off. I have what is called polycystic ovarian syndrome or PCOS. It causes problems with my insulin which basically means that every bit of sugar I put in my body gets turned into stored fat. So I've now decided to stop doing weight watchers and ( Read more... )

woo! that feels better. there's nothing there anymore except for feelings of the past. I had a nuts dream last night. I was in this house and there was a really cute boy there that I was going to hook up with. He was laying in my bed and then his friend came in and lay between us with his feet down by my head. He start playing with my feet like he ( Read more... )

was it really all fake like steven thinks. to think that i loved him that much and it couldve all just been a big game makes it all nothing. the one person that i ever cared about like that and would do anything for was he just playing me? did he want to be the one with power so much that he played me that hard? why do these things keep coming up? ( Read more... )

i'm getting stronger in my jogging. i noticed that today on the treadmill. I've been jogging and walking around the neighborhood where my sister lives and it helps that there's hills. I hate them BUT they're making me stronger. I have a lot of things in line in my life right now. I've stopped hooking up with people. It started to make me feel bad ( Read more... )

so today was a good day. i just helped my sister clip coupons, exercised, and went to publix. it was kind-of a lazy day. I did exercise though. I've been exercising everyday of the week except for one. I try to get one hour in everyday but i still don't feel like that's enough. I dont know what my problem is. I haven't been this self conscious ( Read more... )

So i fucked up for a couple weeks and now im back hard at it. I'm pissed I didn't lose any weight this week. It's like the smaller I get the more I hate myself. I'm sucking all the self-confidence out of myself and I don't know how to make it stop. I've been told by and amazing boy that I look almost like a different person but I don't see it ( Read more... )

This week has been fucking awesome! I got rear-ended on the 10th and since my car is completely paid off I'm going to get a check for the amount of the damage, which is a lot. So now I'm going to be able to pay off my court costs, my taxes, get a better car, and maybe even pay off a credit card. Then on top of that everyone at Troy University ( Read more... )

I still get so digusted by him. sitting up on his little high horse thinking that he's better than everyone else. and that little red-headed cunt slut bitch ( Read more... )

I made some really yummy stuff tonight. It was chicken with black beans, tomatoes, green peppers, onions, chili powder, and taco seasoning. Throw it into a flour shell and put some cheese in it only 5 points and it's huge mmmm. I got stood up tonight so it gave me something to do and to eat ( Read more... )