a rock hard chicken and cold green beans are sitting in my stomache. everything feels angular, heavy and chalky. my relief at it being the weekend died as soon as i got home. my parents have signed me up for a psat course. lovely people really.my father has his head between me future and his ass. my mother doesn't know how to be nice during the ( Read more... )

Okay.so. it's been a while. at the tea spot. i'm gonne have to be the downer again and tell everybody we have to go so i'm writing this to satisfy them. "at least i wrote on my journal!" everything is moving very fast and if isurvive this year without a nervous breakdown it'll be a miracle. if you see me muttering to myself in the hallway this year ( Read more... )

The lemons back!!!!!!!!!! Hurray!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm on a major inspiration kick from getting no sleep last night. You'd think sleeping pills would help out better right ( Read more... )

One great thing about being the age I am (newly 16, hey) is that I still have that child like ability to cut through the crap of what people say to me with maturity ( Read more... )

I have a very good excuse for not coming to school today- which I promise I will explain later. Promise. NO alex it's not the doctor, sorry i lied but you never would have let me get away with the i'll tell you later reason. Which I will. but for now i don't want to say anything. anyways on the upside the only time i get to write is when i'm home ( Read more... )

Do i have a cough? No. Do I have a fever? no. Do I have cancer? Not today, although that might be an interesting change of pace. So why am I sick from school again today? Good question. God, do you think you can handle that one becuse hell if I know. Actually, if I were to diagnose myself, I would write myself a perscription for good old ( Read more... )

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i hate my friends. yes, I realize they are the only ones who will be reading this. the little fuckers. and if my parents find this- I did not type fucker. so alex says i'm being modernized. eeewwwww. i don't like being modernized. not into a culture, a society that stresses the importance of speed. everything must be faster, better and if it's ( Read more... )