Ummm... Beka... I, uhm, was wondering if maybe... ::cough ... cute little smile:: consider going out with me... like on a real date? ::bites lip::

::in his office as has been cleared for part time work::

::looks at pictures of he and Jonas from childhood, misses having a brother that cared::

::tries to do a journal entry, is so damn sad omfg, lays head on desk and cries::

(follow the obvious fake cut to my bio and feel my angst)

::awake::

::bored out of skull::

::fidgets with bandages on wrists::

::puffs out cheeks:: Pfffffft...

::stares at the ceiling::

::scribbles furriously into journal::

I've been alone... terminally alone. Dr. Dowell has been focusing his attention on Dr. Darko, guess he thinks she's worse off than I am. I feel like I've lost everything and everyone I ever cared about. Courtknee calls me, I'm pretty sure it's some odd guilt thing... she doesn't love me or anything, how could ( Read more... )

I HATE MY PARENTS!!

::scribbles emo into 56th journal::

THEY CAN'T MAKE ME GO BACK!!!

THEY JUST CAN'T!!!

I'LL KILL MYSELF... AND I'LL MAKE SURE IT WORK THIS TIME!!!

::stares at the infirmary ceiling, filled with so much guilt and shame::

It's over.. all my hopes and dreams for the future.. gone, just like that. I saw it coming.. thought I could dodge the bullet, but it hit me. Court doesn't love me, I doubt she ever really did. I have no idea where to go from here.. I can't go home to Kelowna, I'm not the same person I was when I got here, like Jonas.. I just don't think I would ( Read more... )

Courtknee wants us to take a trip to Kelowna to meet the parents, I'm not looking forward to this at all. Have I mentioned my Mom is a frightening individual? Now it's not that I'm not proud to show off my relationship with Courtknee, it's just.. the Mom is really scary thing. So, I guess I'll discuss this with Jonas, and then General O'Neill to ( Read more... )

Jonas and Summer sprung me from the psych ward, and I'm grateful, I really am. All I can think about is Courtknee.. she wasn't there when I got home, and she's refusing to see me. She thinks all she does is hurt me, she doesn't seem to know that the very few times I've felt true happiness in my life, have been with her ( Read more... )