Chapter #25
The past six days Yoochun got really sick of the enclosed place, he is not a very huge fan of hospital. Other than Yunho’s usual visit, Jaejoong’s secret visit and Leanne’s for medications, no one else step into that room. Yoochun remembered that he say he will come and visit on the next day, but he didn’t turn up. He decided to wait for another day, but he is face with another disappointment instead. Days passed he has lost the hope that Junsu will be visiting him. /* Tomorrow I will be discharged from here. Will he turn up for today? I guess not, he hasn’t been coming for the past few days what make him will come today or even tomorrow when I’m discharged? */
Unknown to him, Junsu has been visiting him when he is asleep during the night. That explains why didn’t Yoochun see him. The reason why Junsu didn’t visit him in the day is because he doesn’t know how to face him and the depression issue as yet. He felt guilty for being the cause of depression in Yoochun’s life. Though Jaejoong has told him it wasn’t totally his fault, he still take the full blame to himself. Today, as again he come to Yoochun’s room. Looking at the sleeping figure, he sees the old Yoochun in there. The one that has no depression, the one that he still loves, the one that is still happy. Junsu wants to feel that sleeping man’s warmth again, but he is afraid that he himself will break or rather more of fearing of breaking Yoochun. /* For once, please let me feel him again. */ Junsu prayed in his heart. As though agreeing to his request, a sudden burst of courage filled him. Junsu take a deep breath and reached out to Yoochun’s face.
Warmth spread though his hands as he touch, the face, the brows, the nose and finally the lips. Little did he know that Yoochun is having this dream where he is doing the same actions and bade him farewell. Suddenly Yoochun is sobbing in his sleep and pleading “Su, please don’t go. Please don’t leave me here alone. Please come back. Su, please…” Taken aback by how Yoochun cried in his sleep, Junsu’s eyes start turning teary. He makes a run for the door, into the washroom before sobbing his heart out. /* How many times have you been crying in your sleep? What more I do not know about when I’m away. Do you know it breaks me to see you in this condition? I feel hurt and broken, why only you can make me feel this way. Why? */
This night, the two lovers sobbed their hearts out under the dim moonlight…
“Are you ready to go?” Yunho ask after helping Yoochun finish packing his belongings. /* Still has no view of Junsu. I guess he isn’t coming anymore. */ “Yeah hyung, lets get going.” A monotone sounded across the room, Yoochun didn’t bother to look back at Yunho while he is spacing out at the window. Yunho understand the reason behind his behaviour, Junsu is the main reason behind that monotone speech. He knows that Yoochun hasn’t been seeing Junsu since that day. He kind of stumbled upon Junsu’s night visit one day and hence knowing the secret of Junsu’s visits. They kind of talk over a cup of coffee in the café, where all things are spilled and none left to keep. But being a stubborn guy, he doesn’t want anyone to know that he has already forgiven Junsu and what he did to Yoochun deep down in his heart.
/* If only you knew about his reasons for leaving… */
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