I love all of my friends. There isn't a soul that comes to mind that I'll intentionally avoid. There isn't a face I'm afraid to look at. I'm sick and tired of hanging out with the ones that I'm unsure really want my presence. I don't understand what instigates ill vibes, but I'd rather not be around if I'm feeling unwelcome. I love my friends. But ( Read more... )

We are all so eager
So aimless

Lately I'm feeling unfulfilled. Lately I'm searching a little further, forming more inquiries and looking for greater reasons of doing things. Questioning how any specific activity will benefit me as a human being, and acting accordingly. Almost as if I'm building a life resume. It isn't that I want to be remembered in a certain light, I'd just ( Read more... )

Merry fucking new years.

Today I started crying ontop of Sonoma mountain. I was reflecting on the past year of my life and how far I've come. I've experienced things that have put me in the position of, in my own eyes, finally seeing myself as a man. I've accomplished my goals. I am setting my sights toward new goals. And I am finally not afraid of what I can achieve by ( Read more... )

Today I started crying ontop of Sonoma mountain. I was reflecting on the past year of my life and how far I've come. I've experienced things that have put me in the position of, in my own eyes, finally seeing myself as a man. I've accomplished my goals. I am setting my sights toward new goals. And I am finally not afraid of what I can achieve by ( Read more... )

Lately I've been doing ecstacy a little more than I'd really like to. I've thizzed three times in the last two weeks. It's probably my lack of seratonin that is getting me all down or whatever. Lately I'm thinking the comedown may be the best part.

My emotions are so stern, and it's difficult to feel any negative emotion most of the time regarding ( Read more... )

It's morning and I'm listening to The Fall of Troy - Phantom on the Horizon. I'm unsure of the reasons this album was written, or the message intended to be perceived. But for me, I've accepted a different tale. Perhaps just as logical, or perhaps irrelevant. But I hear something cinematic.

I suppose it all began with a lost soul named Brandon. He ( Read more... )

I am on a trip
You are on a trip
And I am here
And you are here
And we are here
Together

Unsure of the cause of animosity
Unsure of the specific case
Or scenario
Or what situation led to what
Ill feelings
Bitter emotion

I suppose I'm a little scared.
Afraid? More or less.