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Being too afraid
A lot has happen over the years that seems to have made me become afraid of getting attacted to people. Every time I find that potential friend or girlfriend, I find myself at a huge black wall. I can't physically see it but I can feel that it is there and it is messing me up. I want so hard to break down this annoying wall but I am not sure if I ( Read more... ) -
Is it just me or....
Is it just me or does it seem like people have ran out of things to say, just to keep from repeating the same thing. As time passes by I feel like I'm growing colder and I really hate it, I remember the times when I couldn't keep myself from talking, even when what I said sounded like it came out of a book written by a new baby(I know, not possible ( Read more... ) -
My truest feelings
Everything has a start and an ending but that's just what makes life the way it is. My mind feel like it's filled with many emotions that I seemed to have locked away inside just so I wouldn't have to deal with them, some sad, some depressing and even some happy. I have become so used to life style that everything that I felt I always locked them ( Read more... ) -
Why me?
Man what is wrong with me lately, I feel so out of it that it actually seems like I'm actually going crazy. I just can't seem to hold onto anything anymore, not friends, not the things I do, the person I am and the places I go. And now today I find myself noticing things about me that I never noticed these 18 years and now that I noticed I hate my ( Read more... ) -
18 years
It has been 18 years since that day, since the day my whole life was changed and the day the born me died. It was the day I had my accident, falling from the 3rd floor and my parents being told that I'm not going to make it. I'm not really sad about it though sometimes I wonder if that's weird to not at least be a bit sad and depressed. I guess ( Read more... ) -
Let go
I don't really know how to write things but I have been doing a lot thinking lately and even some meditating because it seems like it's the best way for me to move on to a different step than I was on. For so long I felt like I always had to find a different path to walk upon because things always seem to block my way but I have found that doing ( Read more... ) -
It's finally done
It's finally over, the relationship from hell that I was in for what seems like forever and you know what I am happy and sad about the whole thing. I feel like it was one of the best choices I ever made and I know that I shouldn't have to feel that way but I do and there's nothing I can do. But I do know the things I can do with my life now, I can ( Read more... ) -
A change of heart
Have you ever one day out of nowhere felt like you want some change in your life or have you ever felt like you were meant to do something other than what you are actually doing? That's the way I feel now. From time to time it's no there's something screaming in my head saying " what are you doing you dummy, you're going the wrong way" I tend to ( Read more... )
