Got a bit of inspiration from a girl I was crushing on for the wrong reason. I absolutely loathe this feeling of desperation to move into normalcy.  But with my first weekend of freedom, I'll curl within for a little while. Should be enjoyable.

The weird part is I 'feel' like I've been working for a year.  In actuality, it's only been 8 months.  Which is odd, because I accidentally listed 9+ months on a resume update.  I guess the days are just so long sometimes, I do feel like I've been employed longer than I actually have been working ( Read more... )

Work has been challenging.  I haven't been able to do things the way I wanted to, things were taken out of my hand and I became extremely angry.  But then I realized something. Maybe I'm not the end-all and be-all.  Maybe there is something to actually being a team, having tasks delegated to me and being mature about the fact that people sometimes ( Read more... )

These last few weeks have been sanity stretching. I haven't felt normal in weeks.  I've been working nothing but 18 hours days (that includes weekends), never really getting great sleep, and always feeling like I'm on my last legs. Perhaps the most telling sign that I was not truly worn is that I always had a smile plastered on my face. Because I'm ( Read more... )

Putting in hard work, day after day, without success would be kind of a drag.  Thankfully, these last few weeks of ridiculous overtime and work have been totally worth it. Now I gotta start chasing the good life a little bit more than I have been lately ( Read more... )

Man, I'm so damn tired. But extremely, extremely happy.  These last few weeks since I came back form my winter break (I'll still call my PTO that) have been nothing but 10-15 hour days.  And I've felt a bit lazy ( Read more... )

Holy shit, my brain just went into hyperdrive.  Doing everything except work made me realize that work has changed me more than I wanted. Fuck doing work on the weekends.  If possible, I will never fucking bring my laptop home again.  I cannot wait to sketch for a whole damn day ( Read more... )

It's nice to create; I need to do more of it.

I need to string together a solid month.

Today was pain day.  I finally decided to try a full circuit work out after not doing it for a bit. Full upper body, back, and belly (I refuse it call it core, it's fat) workout.  I feel like I'm on fire.  It didn't help that the meal after that that had no cheese or pasta in it. What am I doing with my life ( Read more... )