nt t sr wht t s bt gss ll fnd t sn, myb ll fnd t whl wrtng ths mssg r myb wnt.

thnkng bt t ts bgng t lk mr bvs s t whts mssng ts vwls...

okay, well that was quite easy to work out what was missing. why cant the feeling of somethings not quite complete be that easy to work out....

Holy cow, today, ive not been in a happy grazing producing milk mood, im more of a raging bull....seems so short on cows lately. friggin head bull aint feeling broody...such not good....

okay maybe the cow/dairy things might go bit further, but soon theyd start repeating themselves if i were to do this.

how to start a random dairy thing, okay, its already started i think but with a lame entry. so much stuff to say so many thoughts, im a confuddled mess. i draw myself too sleep, tempory death? maybe. i resurect every morning the sun beating down on me, ruining those dreams that i have/had. what to do?

today was ok....
learnt some self defence
and i think i might be able too add something more than food poisioning to the list of things i can cook!

i think i need more sleep, been feeling really tired lately
also been feeling strangely boiling these lasty few nights

first post in this journal.....

and well today was slow, depressing and rather crap....